Where's my break.. where? o.O

Where's my break... I wonder again. I seriously think that I really have no break at all... everyone may be stressed, but I think I am worse. Monday to friday, sch ends roughly around average 5pm.. and I reached home at around 6 to 6plus. After cooling down, bathing and eating, it's 8plus, close to 9pm. Of course a person cannot do every single assignments at one go, especially when you have chemistry, physics and biology tutorials on 1 day. And I haven include the time to study for tests, which are becoming frequent nowadays.. sigh ='( When you're stuck at certain qns of tutorials, it tends to pull down your morale and it tires you out after much thinkin and energy used to solve the qn. When you start to think about other tutorials undone, it's worse. The morale decreases by another mark. Mr midnight approaches... then it's 1am. Time to sleep(or rather, have to sleep), but haven finish those tutorials! Never mind.. wake up at 5am to finish them. Then here's my 4 hours sleep everyday, waking up at 5am and doing tutorials and sometimes studying for test. One thing i realised for myself, I feel more awake when i wake up at 5am to get my mind warmed up! Then I seldom fall asleep in lectures nowadays! Which is good.. haha =p The week goes on... with almost similar cycles repeating every single day... Weekend approaches.. (smiles for everyone, sighs for me) Tml's saturday, my best buds like kian and hq are excited, cos they going to attend my dear, pat's birthday celebration at K-box! It was actually planned on thursday, 21 April, her b'dae, but cos alot of people cannot make it on thursday, so she changed it to saturday.. and guess what? Even I really badly want to go, but I can't. I am like a piece of ham, sandwiched between 2 pieces of bread, school work and st john. Tml morning 8-11plus, I have soccer training in sch.. then after I come back, I have to rush to meet up with my otc course mates, to do a project, a presentation cum demonstration on CPR and choking. This is part of the otc exam, stands about 20%. This should end at around 6-7 pm? (becos we haven even done anything yet) When I reach home, I have to quickly go study my theory paper cos sunday's the final exam for otc. Plus I need to revise my practicals on first aid, get myself familiar with those footdrill commands and stuff related. can imagine the time I am going to sleep le huh.. sigh, one thing I cannot attend the K-box thing, which I foresee it to be very fun.. and the other thing is I don have a break throughout my week.. my saturday's ruined. My sunday's ruined too. I have to prepare for this exam, everything. I have gone through 6 sundays of courses. I've sacrificed my time, my rest time, and my time to play as well as work. And 1 thing for sure, I am going to do well for this final exam!~ Sunday's course hours ranges from 7.30am--8pm, which should be the time I'll reach home. Going home with sore eyes... a body totally drained out of its energy, a soul who just needs to lie down on the bed and take a few hours' rest. Time for homework? you must be joking. What's after the rest (I'll sleep longer on sunday nights, cos I have a heavy day, and I need to prepare myself for monday with lasts till 6pm!), 6am monday morning! =D Schooling time! And the whole cycle repeats itself... maybe it would be much better after this week, with sundays free of st john. But, I need to go down to spca to do my volunteer work... hmm, looks like I am back to square one again... :s "I'll hold on tighter to my faith, and will never lose unless I quit." - ck. *smile guys!

Punishment by the Time

sigh.. is this some kind of punishment by time? and I really mean the time which you get from the clock or a watch. I am running out of time... I need time to give me somemore time, time's really rushing me off my tracks and I'm on the verge of falling.. maybe not now, but soon. It might happen, it might not. I need to keep reminding myself that I cannot fall, once I fall, there's no chance of recovery.. no. not even a single sign of hope will linger around.... sigh.. what is this? I'm realli stressed out, drained out of my energy, but I believe everyone have their own problems and worries, everyone's stressed out too. I believe. Let me not talk about everybody, cos it's all together different situations for everyone.. I have a few tests coming up next week and I am not even prepared for the test... the foundation of my all subjects aren't even there, I don feel the confidence growing in me. It'll be only worsened by other things that distract me and add pressure to my daily workload. I've been preparing a cycling course for my st john juniors in kranji - calling up the course instructor..confirming with kranji teachers and the instructor abt certain controversy, writing a proposal.. but I cannot find the right time for me to finish up this task! I reach home everyday at average 6 and it's like too late to call up teachers or the instructor already! But what can I do? I can only wait for weekend to come.. when I am free in the morning and the afternoon..day by day passed and the officer is pushing me very hard for the proposal to be handed in.. sigh well, weekend? I've to really do my homework and revise on saturday. It's the only available day for me. Realli. You may ask, what about sunday. I've a full day officer course at SJ hq, every sunday, from 7am to 7pm.. for 7 consecutive sundays.. by the time I reach home, I can only eat, bathe, and maybe online for a while before going to sleep... It's really tiring to go for a full day and I cannot get myself down to the table to do any more tutorials. I'm stressed. realli. Next sunday I am supposed to present my group's project on Head Injuries during the course.. we were given 3 weeks to do, yet I cannot find the time to meet up with my course mates. They live all over singapore, finding a suitable meeting place's also hard.. hai.. Somemore next week's also my officer course's theory paper and practical exam, and I don even know what's coming out in the exams. In addition to all these, I still have a group project; a proposal on First Aid Competition. This proposal's to test our organising abilities and teamwork.. all those stuff la.. I haven done any. I haven contributed anything to my group, I really... cannot, find the time, unless I sacrifice my saturdays and go meet up with them and spend the whole day doing it. If I do this, where's the time for my homework? revision? rest? where!? I hate this.. time's really punishing me. moreover, I am not always free on saturday to have time to do my homework... I am going back to sch for soccer trial tml morning.. hope I can really come home tml and study. I need to study, really, I need to be on track... I am running out of time everyday.. Since monday to friday is schooling day, I have only saturdays to allow time for my SPCA committments - it's a 1 hour trip down to SPCA and a 1 hour trip back. Time! oh my.. but it also depends on whether there're events coming up and SPCA needs volunteers to go down. If it's on a saturday, I'd try to go down...come on, you might think it's a waste of time for such stuff, but i think otherwise. Animals out there need help! Approximately 1000 animals are sent in to SPCA per month and 90% of them have to be euthanized! Imagine guys! 90%, it's not a small amount, but why do so much of them have to be put to sleep? The only concern is because of space constraint in singapore, we cannot afford too many animals to be bred and then in the end they're either chased out of the house or abandoned. This is cruelty. However, is euthanasia a form of cruelty too? I beg to differ. It's just a way that animals are put to sleep and they won't wake up anymore. It's a painless and fast way of ending their life. It's far better than letting them run on the roads and get abused by idiots, or get run over by cars or even suffer in pain with a infection or a fracture somewhere! I have to help the SPCA, it's...a must for me. Perhaps, 2nd in priority to homework? Sch work on monday to friday.. tests, sundays booked, saturday busy, plus the fact that I haven been having enough sleep these few days! Perhaps this is the reason why I am feeling rather stressed and frustrated now.. I have been sleeping 4 hours or even less for consecutive 3 days.. and I am really tired. (I watched soccer at 2.30am mah, so tired the next day, haha... don blame me, soccer fans will understand me =p) Let's just hope that things will turn out to be better each day.. =)

Wedding Anniversary.. ^^

Wedding Anniversary? lol.. not my though... aww.. haha! Not to worry, my will be coming soon =x

well, it's my parents' wedding anniversary yesterday, 08 March. My mom called on thursday and asked me to celebrate with them... so I told her my class end at 4-5 pm on friday, and could only make it after about 7pm. haha.. then she ask me to call pat along, which i think i should, if not I go there be lamp-post arh! Lol.. secondly also she's my dear, haha.. mus ask her along for such events... =)

Received a sms from my mom tt we would be eating at Tampinese.. *what? so far! lol.. * That was what came across my mind when I saw this message. haha.. so I met pat at 6plus and headed to Tampinese in my limousine. oh, I mean the mrt.. wahaha... *boy, I'm talking nonsense, lol! Reached there at about 7.30pm and have to search for tt restaurant, called Paris International Restaurant! Sounds classy and.. cool! Simply great! haha..

Here comes the food part which I am not going to dwell too much on, because everything just taste sooooo heavenly, just even the auroma of the dishes can simply knock 10 people out!! lOL... Had french wine inconjunction with the food too! Taste better than the last time I had it somewhere(forgotten where is it), haha!

Oh yes! The design of the restaurant! One word to describe: Elegant. The restaurant's characterised by dignified richness and grace, simply luxurious... gosh.. I'm faintin xP It has got those little crystal lightbulbs held on together to form a bigger globe and the lissome light rays shot across the hall as if the hall's endless..creating a totally romantic atmosphere for a couple or couples. =x hahaha.. simply love this restaurant! mmM! Jus close your eyes and imagine.. french red wine blending with the soft music playing in da background... ^^

Chatted till about 9.30 when the bill was settled by my dad (of cos), and then went for a Kara-ok session at Temasek club! lol! Actually my mom wanted to book till 2am, but it was kinda late, and thus we sang till 12plus and it's sometimes sooo funny to watch your own parents singing! lol.. pat sang quite a number of songs, pat n I sang a few too, and then.. my parents! Sang those super old songs! including Hokkien songs which are nice! lOl! haha...

Drove pat home and met her parents under her block (they went out to buy something I guess)..and I headed for my ah ma's house while my parents went back home to enjoy.. *grins wahaha... =)

OTC Day 4..

Today's Officer Training Course (OTC) day 4.. or rather the 4th sunday. Haha! Woke up at 6.30, fearing that history will repeat itself again. Well, overslept the previous sunday and woke up at 7.10am! Oh my gosh! If I take the MRT, I'll be late by at least 20 min! Luckily my dad's ard this morning to drive me to HQ, despite his late night work till 3am this morning.. =D After eating my ba zhang (rice dumpling) made by my ah ma, I set off and reached HQ at ard 8am... Hurriedly, I changed into my uniform and headed for the lecture room. Put my bag down and got ready for the morning parade as ususal... went to fall in at 8.15am? (Actually the time to report is 8.30am de, but becos everyone come so early, so the time to fall in depends on the whole course themselves) haha.. that is to say, we decide the time considered to be late too! =P It's always uncertain abt the actual time anyway, who cares?! lOl.. I can't believe that they mark attendance, did some scolding (used to it), check grooming, check unifrom.. all those, took such a long time tt by the time i got to go back to the lecture room, it was 9.30am le.. dots. T.T Stood in the morning sun for 1 hr 15 min just to 'warm' us up.. lol Anyway, we all sweat like crazy, didn't know morning sun can be so taxing! haha.. Lalala... interestin lectures today though, love them, cos they're inspiring and motivating! =) Lunch time.. 12.40pm, *dink! yay! My team mates asked me where to eat, then I say "Anywhere except for BURGER KING." well, I had a phobia against Burger King, that gay king, and kian shuld know the reason for this.. besides, it's expensive, not so healthy, and I'm sick of eating BURGERS from BURGER KING!! argH! Nevertheless... as an Officer-To-Be O.o, I accomodated and compromised with those gals in my team to go Burger King to have lunch.. urgh.. have been having burger king whenever I see them on sunday (sick). Came back from lunch and then later in the evening, we had footdrill till abt 6, and I cannot believe, again, the evening sun is so taxing too~! Oh my.. so freakin hot! Was sweatin like some kind of freak even before the footdrill start! Everything ended at 6.15 and what a day for me! Well, 3 more course day (or rather 3 more sundays) awaits ck the great! =)

*Sighs

What's? wrong? I ! hate! this! feeling! sigh~ o.o

A FUCKER spoils the whole day.

Today's orientation day 3, supposed to be back with your CT classes, which means the permanent class tt we'll be having for the next 2 years. And my best bud wee kian's appeal was a success and he got into the same class as me! So ^^ haha!

Back to my title.. today, steven, xiangming, sherman, zhenhui, weekian and me were having lunch in da canteen, eating chicken rice as usual with extra rice, extra meat.. lol, then suddenly 1 fucker who's wearing a yellow Student Council t-shirt, came to approach us. Both xm and sherman were already in a bad mood from the previous incident tt happened in da hall, which is rather realli, fucked. Then, the fucker came to ask if we're from SO1, and we answered yes. We were eating at tt time, so not alot of talking's involved, but we finished the rice up very quickly and he told us tt he got something very impt to tell us. Curious, we sat there quietly to listen to what he's got to say.

He started off the conversation saying that we need to be more enthu, need to change our attitude abt the orientation and shouldn't criticise other classes. WHAT THE FUCK? SINCE WHEN DID WE CRITISIZE OTHER CLASSES? I got fucked up by this sentence, hence probed further to ask if when did we ever criticise other classes? And we asked him who told him to speak to us, and he said SOMEONE. Well, after much questioning, we got to know tt it's our own OGL tt told him tt we have bad attitudes, we criticises other class.. all those bad stuff.

We asked him to give examples on what stuff that we said which he thinks we're in wrong, and GUESS WHAT?! THAT FUCKER, and I mean A REAL FUCKER, actually said that we say "The other classes are not as good as us, cos we triple science class." WHAT THE FUCK? WHEN DID WE EVER SAY THAT?! THIS IS TOTALLY RIDICULOUS!

Friends out there who're reading my blog, after knowing me for so long, do I look like 1 who say this kinda things? Does weekian look like 1 too? and xiangming? And my other 3 friends whom I knew for 3 months, I know they wont say this kinda things!! IF we have such bad attitude, how the hell did we get into a triple science class? I believe that everyone knows that in order to excel in your studies, what comes first? Attitude! We have bad attitude? We criticise till this stage? If we have such attitude, we wouldn't even get into a JC in the first place, neither poly or even ITE! WE WOULD HAVE forgotten about studies and went to slack around!

what the fuck la, we know we wouldn't say this kinda things, and that fucker kept insisting that we did say that. So I was very fucked up and i asked "So, from the way you're talking, you're standing on that gal's side who told you this story and believing in her point of view, and isn't this bias? You only listen to 1 side of the story?" He didn't answer to my qn but changed to talk from other points of view, but isn't this obvious tt he's bias? So I decided not to question him on this any further. FINE. I kept quiet and listen to what he's got to say.

Then we went into the topic of we not being enthu. what the fuck is this, we not enthu? We were so friendly and high in the morning when we play games and when they OGLs told us to go take a break, we even joined in other classes games! ISN'T THIS ENTHU? HOW THE FUCK ENTHU THEY WANT US TO BE? THIS IS TOTALLY ABSURB! FUCK.

Then next was back to the criticising thing again, that fucker said that we made our OGL (tt gal), cried becos we criticise her. Again, WHAT THE FUCK LA? Since when did we criticise her? That fucker said that she went to the toilet and cried becos of what we did. BUT, THE PROBLEM IS, DID WE EVER DO ANYTHING TO HURT THE GAL's FEELINGs? I CAN SWEAR, WE NEVER EVER DID. Even if there's, is "hey, you very fierce leh..!" a criticism? Somemore we said this in a joking manner!! Imagine!! THIS IS SOO STUPID! I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT WE ACTUALLY GOT ACCUSED FOR THESE KINDA FUCKED THINGS!

Then that fucker said we should cool down, but, HOW THE FUCK DO YOU EXPECT US TO COOL DOWN, after being ACCUSED OF SOMETHING WE DIDN'T DO?!?! NOW, THE SITUATION IS LIKE, OUR REPUTATION IS RUINED IN PJ, SO MANY PEOPLE KNOWS ABOUT THIS THING AND IT'S LIKE EVERYONE'S TELLING US WE'RE THE BAD BOYS. HE or rather SHE, MALIGNED US!

Okay, now we've got a bad image in front of everyone and it's becos of SOME THINGS, WHICH WE DIDN'T FUCKING DID! WHAT THE HECK!

Well, firstly that fucker tried to be mysterious and when we asked about his name, he declined to answer us. Fine, we asked him about his class since he asked us about everything. He said, we don't need to know which class he's from. Name? "I'm just a normal student in a normal jc like Pioneer JC." fine.

Then another student counciler came by, he's a nice fellow, standing neutral. We told him everything and he called that fucker who we later found out to be called Adrian, down to the canteen to settle the misunderstanding. This is the moment when we knew everything about this fukcer, and when we asked about why he lied abt his identity, he said he didn't lie. Isn't claiming himself to be a J1 when he's not, lying? Kian shot him back with "You're turning 18 this year and you still can't differentiate between a lie and a truth." Well done, kian. Next, I shot him with "Why can't you just say that you're from J2, what's wrong with that, and is telling us your class a shameful thing to do? A sensible person wouldn't say that he's just a normal person in a normal JC like Pioneer." Isn't it?? He's just trying to be unreasonable.

The other nice fellow was just listening beside and trying to solve the misunderstanding. Well, he told us to just forget about this matter and hope that we'll be more enthu after lunch. what the fuck, how can we just forget about this matter when we got accused and almost every OGLs or rather friends know abt this matter? We did nothing wrong and we were accused?

What the fuck, I seriously think that this is a very serious misunderstanding! Well, that fucker just spoils our nice orientation which was supposed to be fun (which we enjoyed ourselves in the morning only). Thanks fucker. =)

Finally.. 9 reds!

If you ever wonder, what 9 reds means, well, it means 9 blood parrot fish. Or rather some people prefer to call em Red Parrot Fish..! haha.. Got to tell ya a lil story abt my reds before I can say what I wish to share! loL... Back in 2003 Dec.. I bought 2 reds, and I thought they would form the world's lovliest pair of love fish.. how romantic! But they turn out to be 2 females T.T Both laid their eggs and both tried to defend their own eggs at different corners of the tank! Well, how did I manage to know that both laid eggs? Easy but crazy, of cos I can recognise my own fish, which is which, and 1 fine day when I saw one of the reds laying eggs on the bed of rocks I prepared at the bottom of the tank! Transparent, small, cute eggs came out in some sort of chain pattern from her 'ass', and I jus sat there watching her lay... ard 45 min passed and she hadn't finish laying her eggs! Got sick of seeing those eggs popping out and I went to take a nap instead! lol.. After some days, I happen to see the other red not swimming quite right in da tank~! Went closer only to realise that she was laying her eggs! Wad de! No males! Crap.. lol... Too bad I didn't introduce any males into the tank, if not all the eggs would have been fertilised! aww... kept saying tt I would go buy 1 male, which cost ard $7-8 bucks, but I always never take action. hahaha Then after about close to a year.. during one of the nights, the oxygen pump's plug's fuse blew.. ! -.- then one of the reds died... ='( what the.. it's not my fault what, the fuse blew suddenly in the middle of the night, what can I do? Unwillingly, but I have to. I scooped out the fish using a net, was rather heavy though.. sigh, very sad and that's it. =/ The worse part is yet to come, seeing the other fish who survived the ordeal swimming all alone in the tank just provides the absolute atmosphere of lonliness. Pure lonliness. It isn't as lively as before. It seemed to ask me "Where's my friend?" whenever I looked into her eyes.. =I Well.. this is the story guys.. Today, after about 3 months of living alone, I bought another 8 to make it 9. Well, I heard from chee that we cannot rear fishes in even number, and 9's always the best number for rearing fishes... i bought 8 more. But eventually 1 died earlier (no reason, maybe he committed suicide), which left only 8 reds in da tank! Even number! My dad went to Qian Hu to buy 1 more Red today.. was rather big in size! lol.. now I've got 9 Reds.. woo hoo! The lively atmosphere in da tank has finally reignite! =D Reds caught in a mess! Shoo! I'm new here, let me socialise first! Don't take pics! no...no! Yes.. that's me, I'm new here! =D Here's my beautiful and heavenly pinkish coloured scales! Wahaha..

Orientation 2..!

O2! As I stepped into the exciting atmosphere in pj, I could see some new fresh (noob) faces, but most importantly, Pj made me feel as if I am back in kranji -.-! lol! So many Kranjians! omg! =/ Well, it's up to individuals to decide whether it's something good or bad! haha! =D

Walked to sch with gay kian as usual, and he was late.. he still specifically reminded me the night before to meet at 6.50am under his block, but then he came out of the lift at 7.03am! lol.. we were supposed to reach sch by 7.30, was wondering if we'll be late.. But, aiya, late then late lor, orientation mah, bound to have late comers, what can they do? haha! We walked normally and saw mr siah again, lol..on his bike. We waved and he seemed happy to see us! =) haha.. it's better to see mr siah than that gay lab uncle, mr tan! We'd either see mr siah or mr tan almost every morning, and it realli freaked the 2 of us out everytime that mr tan walked apast us looking at us with tat kinda eyes.. haha O.O

Reached sch at 7.30 sharp and before I could check my OG group, pat already checked for me, I was in OG34 ! haha.. pat's in OG32, with xm and steven, and.. christina, liwen, nicholas, byron! So many krnajians in OG32! I was jealous at first, but I thought, hey, I have only 2 kranjians in my OG34(shixian and another gal, forgot her name) and that means I have more chances of making new friends! XD hahaha.. :)

My O5SO1 pinkie group, my good friends, sherman, zhenhui, steven, xiangming and me, got into groups which were in chronological order! xm and stevie in OG32, sherman in OG33, me in OG34, zhenhui in OG35. wow! hahaha.. nice! I was informed by a few of them to enlarge my radar scope.. *caught no balls at first. (think, open up your radar means to scan for chio gals la.. hahah)

The stupid talk started at 8am and went on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on an... till 11am! so boring! I am hearing this for the second time, but for the sake of those newbies, I decided to show some considerations by not disturbing those peeps beside me. I wan to intro myself mah.. haha!

Then I went over to sit with sherman and zhenhui, talk cock as usual, and then after a while, those gals who went to the canteen with pat, came back but ps-ed pat in the hall! lol.. was sitting alone, and the ever kind and friendly ck went over to accompany her. Chatted and then I msged zhenhui to disturb him, and those lame smses realli made dae more interestin! lOL!! some hilarious smses though.. wahahaha.. such as he threatening to kidnap me and then kidnap pat, with my hamster along.. then skinning my hamster and make into some meat balls or something. Looks funny when he wanted to kidnap me! HAHA.. =D well.. that's all for O2 Day 1! :) er... I wont be updating on what's happening tml as... I'll be PONning! hahaha, so bo liao lo.. I will go for the last 2 days, don worry! haha!

Should I say I wont be going to O2 later? cos it's like.. 2am now! lol.. going to sleep after reading a book later, see you guys soon! =P

-'* Quill *'-

Just to test something, haha.. promoting the movie "Quill" perhaps? =p It's a fantastic movie, showing the life of a special dog named quill, from birth till the day he dropped.. =/ It shows how the puppy grew up from birth.. went for training so that he could aid the disabled. Very clever dog though.. pick up things fast and has it's own character. Lived for about 2 years after his disabled owner left the world when quill's about 11 years old.. by the age of 13, quill was brought back to where he was borned. When he was back, he recognised the toys he once played before 10 years ago.. but before he could play with em... he fell and.... left this world.. ='( It's a very touching movie guys..

Release of Posting results...

whoops.. woke up at 8.30 in da morning! Promised kian the previous night that i'd wake up early to wait with him for 8am to come.. so tt we can check the posting results together. haha.. but then when I woke up, I received 4 sms from him, including a wake up msg, plus a msg which states that he got posted to pj.. sigh, I thought he was joking with me. Becos I heard that posting results will only be out by 8am and the msg i received from kian was at 7.30.. haha but then it was true though.. =/ Results were actually out by 6am. lol.. so lame

I was posted to pj, lol.. no need to check de, cos it's like confirm liao lo... haha!

Then after that I accompanied him to aj to appeal.. haha, finally I went into aj! =) Relatively average, in terms of sch design? Not tt old la.. haha, it's still okay. But the general office needs a bit of upgrading!! lol.. look at those doors, am I in the 80s or something, upgrade it to something more class! lol.. as the saying goes "First impression counts, last impression lasts." Shouldn't aj give visitors a good impression when they sign in, then giving a lasting impression when they leave? lol.. well, it's up to the school's finance department to do the upgrading! =p

Then after tt, I asked kian to introduce the sch to me, since he had been here before, and then he showed me the "thing" immediately!! lOL! there.. that penis like structure which was right beside the canteen... it was claimed to be an artistic thing or what, but I don really know how to appreciate. I guessed kian and chee doesn't know how to, if not why are they laughing at that 'penis' ?? haha!! xD *censored!

Then went to junction 8 to meet up with chee.. and then kian bought a gay notebook from naruto, called "Come Come Paradise." omg! they actually sell this book! lol! Although it's supposed to be a porn book in naruto, but in this case, it's a notebook.. phew. haha! =p
I think kian's having a great time with "come come paradise" now! =p

lol.. tml orientation day... so boring! It's like going thru the second orientation! nvm, can meet more new friends! =D Hopefully can see more chio bu! hahaha... =x pat's gonna get me for this. haha! see you guys soon!! ;)

L-A-T-E

One thing about being late is that you'll piss the other party that's waiting, off. Another thing about being late is that it reflects much about oneself. The last thing about being late is that, if you want to be late, don't ever be late on the first day of any special occasions/courses/classes. My experience proves my last point made. O.o Don't be late on the first dae, cos you'll be suay thru out! wa kao! Last week was my st john's first officer training course (otc), course dae 1. I was late for 15 min, 8.30 was the reportin time. I reached at 8.45 and realised EVERYONE had fallen in. Being the extra, I couldn't join the squad as I wished. So I stood by the side and waited for the officer in front to give me instructions. "That fellow, those trainees over there! Late is it?" he yelled. "Yes sir!" I replied. "What you waiting for? Don't know how to report is it?" He screamed. eek! Being screamed at in front of the whole course isn't a good experience.. then after I reported, I tried to join in my team. I walked thru the squad from the middle, and then got scolded for cutting his squad (which I realised my mistake). I ran back to where he was, marched off again the other way round to join my team. poof! what a morning! Then during one of the lectures, when everyone's in attention while the course IC was reporting the strength to the lecturerer, I din pay attention and I scratched my head. Suddenly, I realised no one was moving, so I looked around, and saw no officer looking at me. So i thought that no one saw me scratching my head.. then after the lecture, a officer tapped me on the shoulder and asked me to report to him behind. I went up to him and got scolded by him, becos he caught me scratchin my head! argh! so suay! This week.. course dae 2. Morning.. I was early! =D Then when the parade starts, the grooming begins... I thought there was certainly nothing wrong with me when I got caught for my hair (which I just cut the dae before) -.- 1 officer told me that the hair behind is too long, got a tail. lol.. then I told him I cut my hair yesterday. He don believe, I kept insisting that I really cut my hair yesterday! then he got nothing to say le, haha! But then becos the front part of my hair is very very short, when that officer(which turns out to be a discipline officer) saw me in the lecture room with my beret off, he told me not to go cut my hair, cos my hair too short! LOL.. but he told me to cut off the back part though.. lol XD Back to the morning parade.. I wore a pair of black pants, which isn't st john one. cos my st john pants were dirtied the day before due to a training back in kranji. So no choice.. have to wear that pair. Becos of 1 extra pocket on my left butt, the officers found it weird I got caught for wearing the wrong pants!! I act a lil and told them that I wore the wrong one becos I have 2 pairs at home.. lol, but she was rather nice, didn't report me to the discipline mistress!! EEK! haha!

Then afternoon, at yio chu kang stadium. We had a rehearsal. I did all the things which I am supposed to do and thus sat down at the seats there.. feeling very very tired after 2 consecutive nights of 4 hours sleep, I put my right leg on top of my left lap (more comfortable mah.. haha). Then? Got caught for not maintaining image when in uniform.

Next, I was having a headache.. very tired and sleepy. Thus, I placed my palms behind me and sat in a very relaxing manner. Then? "You think you watch movie ar?", "No sir!" T.T

See.. I came to a conclusion... don be late for the first dae of anything. It's really suay, like what happen to me. Within 2 course daes, I got caught 6 times.. wad the. O.O

Sigh.. now having a stupid headache. See you guys! =) take care!

Back Home ^^

"Naughty", pat's budgerigar, was supposed to go home last night but after I bathed at 9, my mom called me and told me to stay at home to look after my baby bro! She say I can go to send naughty home, but must reach home by 9.30pm.. what the, lol. She needs to rush back home to put my baby bro under my care, then out again by 9.30 to meet a client (my mom's a housing property agent). I was thinking, how the heck can I send naughty home and then me making back to my home by 9.30? haha.. so I told my mom I've decided not to go send naughty home. -.- I hate things cropping up the last minute and ruined my plans.. haha, but never mind la, since naughty likes me so much! haha! =x He can stay at my house (chalet) for 1 more dae! No extra charges! =p This morning I woke up at 4am, watched Liverpool vs Blackburn till 6am.. it was a 0-0 draw..T.T can't believe it!! lol.. wtf, pissed. hahaha.. then I slept from 6am to 10.30, waking up and talking to naughty for half an hour, while I cleaned it's cage, and changed the drinking water! Well, some observations I've made during the 6 daes stay with naughty. Likes: - Rock music! - Sick jokes (will jump like crazy when he hears 1 from me =p) - Being blown by the fan (hot weather mah) - Screaming when he smells food from the kitchen! - Looking out of the window! Dislikes: - Corny jokes (looks away when he hears 1) - Quiet environment - Me touching him (o.o do I look like a crook) haha! cool ass.. lol, then about 11.30, before I told him I was bringing him home, I saw 2 feathers he left behind in the cage! Long ones! very nice! Grey feather, with a slight shade of ocean blue colour at the edge.. hahaha, wrapped it up in a piece of paper and put it in my wallet n_n haha.. Walked to pat's house and reached there at about 12pm.. was sweating like crazy, I couldn't take a bus because bus don't allow birds to be onboard! lOL! Then when I was in pat's room, her mom came back from somewhere and asked me if I wanted to stay for lunch. I didn't want to have a lonely lunch at home again, so I agreed! haha.. what a good time that I arrived at her house. lol.. her mom wipped up a few plates of delicious bee hoon topped with some minced mushrooms + pork.. with tomato ketchup and chilli sauce added... mixed everything up like rojak and I got a wonderful lunch! =D And also a bowl of tasty soup with alot of stuff inside, the pipping hot soup certainly opened up my appetite! =) hahaha Sent pat to lot 1 to meet up with zy and jing - they going k-box! haha.. I didn't go though, and then went back to her house to fetch her bro to the basketball court for a basketball game.. played till 3.30 (f-fing hot weather!!).. we both were nearly toasted! lol.. while walking back to his house, we saw mr andy kong, scary! lol.. still same old pattern. wahaha... Then after that I walked back to my home, discussed with kian about cutting hair stuff, and then played gb! hahaha.. =O While pat, zy and jing are enjoying themselves at k-box... I am signing off now! Going to my ah ma house for dinner! haha.. =p see ya friends!

Public Duty at Admiralty Pri Sch T.T

First aid pulic duty is perhaps the most interesting or rather the wae to show what we as first aiders have learnt in the past years... No doubt this is also something to prove your capabilities. =) Todae admiralty pri sch requested for about 15 st john cadets to go down for duty for a "Amazing Race." It was a long dae from 8am to 4pm.. looks abit sick though. lol.. I went with kailing, sheryl, liwen and 9 other cadets (enthu! =p). Knowing that there's a duty todae, I still slept at 3.30am (late!) and woke up at 6am! crazy.. was totally in a state of confusion when I woke up at 6.. imagine, consecutively 4 hours of sleep for 4 days plus a 2 and half hours sleep this morning.. I am totally drained out of my energy. Then after I settled down, it was around 7 plus liao.. which I have to meet kailing they all at 7.45 at cck control! But.. but! I still have to rush down to pat's house to water plants.. and do something(not to be disclosed =p)! She was away in hk and her parents require my help to water those cute lil plants of theirs... haha! Rushed down to pat's house and then when I came out of her house, it was already 8am -.- doh.. I hate getting myself late! But always can't help it.. loL! Smsed kl to sae that I not meeting them le, cos I will be taking a taxi down myself (late liao mah). Hailed a taxi and I told the uncle I want to go to Admiralty Pri Sch, he say he's not sure where it is. But, during the morning peak hour, all the taxi are hired! No choice!! Have to take this taxi! Then I told him that the sch is around sembawang that area.. I supposed. Then he drove me to sembawang, dunno which wae he took, so long! When I reach sembawang, the fare was already $9.. then i quickly smsed kkl, sheryl and liwen asking them about the address of the sch, but only liwen replied! argh.. haha! Called me and said that the sch is in the woodlands region! So.. the taxi have to make a U-turn back and head for woodlands. So stupid.. I keep looking out of the window becos I don wan to see the taxi fare! Scary! Turn and turn, look here and there.. look look look, finally I saw the sch, made another loop to get to the sch gate. Guess the fare now. O.o $11.80 + $1.00 extra charge -.-! wtf.. when i alight from the mrt, saw everyone entering the sch gate.. Phew, I wasn't late! haha! Then the security guard stopped me, because I wasn't in my st john t-shirt. He don believe that I am from SJ! Seriously, do i look like a crook?! lOL!.. Luckily I asked liwen to help me take my SJ t-shirt from my ah ma house and then she gave it to me. I wore it over my adidas shirt and then the security guard then believe me O.O haha! so kuku.. When I was chatting with the 3 gals about my freak stupid moronic ass OTC which was on sundae, I realised that the duty starts at 10am -.- wtf.. what about my $12 now.. wa lao, really feel like knocking my head against the wall. so stupid! nvm la.. I told myself, since I've already reached the sch, and $12's paid, what can I do? lol.. =o Waited till 10 and then set off for my first aid point, which was around 200 metres from the sch gate.. at a basketball court. The sun came out! so hot!! lol.. went into the shelter and then chatted with 2 of the "Amazin Race" leaders at the location. Asking them about how they know about this program, why they volunteer.. all those. Then being curious, I asked about their sch. "So.. where u studyin in?" I asked politely. "RJC year 2," she replied then lookin back at her notes she brought. "That's she, I'm from NYJC year 2," the other replied while meddling with those stuff required for the amazin race. OH MY GOSH. I am simply stunned!! wa kao! They look so noob, yet from RJC and NYJC?! The worse part is yet to come. "So where you from?" the 2 gals asked me. "er.. PJ," I answered after pausing for a few seconds. lol.. it's not that i condemn pj, but compare the names, RJ and NYJ sounds more pro!! loL.. them my junior who's with me was laughing at me. hahaa... but I'll never feel ashamed of my own JC! =) You would have realised till now, I wasn't quite feeling quite positive abt this duty.. u know why? They claimed that this was a amazin race, but there weren't any running, no sense of urgency, no rough games!! You know what games they play? Well.. one was getting people standing on pinic mats and blindfolded, while holding a ball which is softer than soft ball and throwing them through a hoo laa hook ! Crazy! Let me ask you this qn, do you think such games will cause ANY injuries? I can assure you, even if there is any, even a 3 year old kid can treat!! lol! Such games still need to activate 13 first aiders? Think twice! Use common sense people, don be over pampered(this is what i call pampered), minor minor games also need so many first aiders, then what about those big events like President Soccer Star Challenge? Sports day? I can tell you, even these events require only about 10 first aiders! That's my point of view! I really felt like an idiot watching them play.. haha! Then I went for lunch, the organiser catered mac for us! lol.. had a fish fillet, but then when I went for a second serving, there weren't any left. haha.. what a pity. I was sooo hungry! Didn't had breakfast and slept so little, I was feeling so hungry and tired all over. lol.. then after lunch I went to other stations, a place much much further from my previous location. I saw mats on the floor again, except they had numbers imprinted on them. The game rule is to tap the numbers in ascending order using only 1 part of your body (eg. feet or hand), everyone have a part to play! the mats are scattered all around and the numbers have to be tapped in order, in the fastest time possible! I ask again, do you think this game require first aiders?!? If people can get injured in this game, people who go for hiking or rock climbin would have died. Isn't it? =x lame lo... Sat there with another junior, this time is a guy. We chatted and then i felt really tired. My eyes couldn't stay open and then I slept from 1 to 2pm! lol.. then kian was with the rest of them at orchard.. sigh, this always happen to me. When I cannot join them, movies and enjoyment seemed to always occur. haha! =p damn sad.. sit there and doing nothing when I can go join kian at orchard! Then as usual, I asked the 2 amazin race leaders where they studying. "I'm from RJC year 2, and she's from RJC year 1," she slang. One of them quite chio! Got those french lady look! wa! The way she talk also so slang! lol.. but this isn't the point I am concerned abt. wth! All from RJC? omg!! I felt inferior. haha!.. lucky chin boon was there to accompany me. lol.. at first the chio lady thought I was sec 3, but she guessed correctly at the second try. =O Ended the whole thing at 4pm and I asked the ambulance driver to drive us all to the nearest mrt! Uncle Teo! We know each other since the trip to kusu island 2 years ago! I reminded him of the trip though.. we were there on public duty too. haha.. he's a nice uncle! =) Friendly and forever smiling! Drove us to admiralty mrt and then he left for SJ HQ to park the ambulance.. so sad. So old le still have to drive here and there. haha.. =I Reached home at around 5 plus and then I went to sleep till 9.30! lol..then my mom woke me up and told me to go eat dinner. Was waitin for pat's call the whole dae though... until 12.30am 15 March, she reached chanji and called me! =) =D *heaves a sigh of relief! I think too much le, then become over worried.. lol. XD That's all folks! haha! Have a nice holiday! =P

I-Pay-Everything Day

=D <-- what a fake smile, lol. well.. Today's I-Pay-Everything Day, it basically means I pay for everything today with pat. -.- wonder who suggested this fantastic idea... hahaha

Watched soccer the night before till 3am plus, and woke up at around 9 the following morning. Switched on the com and saw gay kian online soon after. hahaha, was glad that he came online cos there isn't an active person in my msn contacts! wahaha, thx dude for making my morning better. lol.. Chatted and then suddenly I thought of the movie "Hitch" which I am watching it with pat today. Thinking of this gay who missed the movie a few days before with other buds, I decided to ask him along. (don realli wish to leave him out =p just thinking that we'd have less time out next time for movies due to the different packed schedule the 2 of us will have in diff jcs)

Kept persuading him and he kept rejecting.. lol, got kinda pissed when he kept rejecting my invitation, but in the end he agreed to go (reluctantly =( haha) Well, agreed to meet at 1.30 at yew tee mrt. I reached yew tee at 1.30 and then pat told me that she forgot to buy food for kah hwee, then she told me that she needed to go back to cck to buy food for her! ah.. surely I can't leave her alone to go buy then I accompanied her to go back to cck. Kept calling kian, wanting to tell him to wait at cck if he hadn't board the mrt, but he kept rejecting our calls! Sent a few sms-es to tell him to wait at cck too, but I guess he already board the mrt. And where was I? I am already in the 302 bus, heading back to cck! omg.. what can I do? sometimes I really wished I could do some jutsu as in naruto and split myself up, so that I can go to 2 places at the same time! haha.. =D made kian real pissed, I know of course. Really sorry about that but I can't help it either, sigh, what a difficult position I am in. In the end I made kian real pissed, lol.. met up with him in the mrt and he gave me a very gloomy face! O.o I don't know what to say to him too, except sorry =)

Let's not talk about the unhappy stuff that happened! lol!.. then we reached orchard station, alighted and then headed for... Shaw! We ended up opposite of Shaw and had to cross the busy road. Then gay kian suggested to take the underpass, which I agreed since it looked more relaxing than walking under the scorching sun. haha.. went in and a Chocolate Hut greeted me instantly. It was a portion of the Marks and Spencer building! Ah!! well, just a comment to add on - Marks and Spencer is branded. Oh great, pat loves chocolates and I was thanking gay kian for taking this path.. haha! The chocos and sweets there were fantastic! Great design, brilliant packaging, marvellous looks, and best of all, interesting price! lol..=p I didn't really care what pat took, she thought she was on a shopping spree and everything was free. o.o I kept going to the wines section.. lol trying not to get close to that freak pat who might just give me a heart attack from the bags of sweets she took. loL!

Kian chose a bag of caramel sweet? Treated me 1 of it and it taste simply delicious! Just imagine sucking the melted milky cream mixed off the whole piece inside your mouth.. and then letting the caramel ooz all over on your tongue a few minutes later, which just fills up the whole mouth.. mmm taste excellent!! =D

Pat bought.. er..hmm, should be I bought..erm, 3 bags of different choco-sweet, ranging from mint to fruity flavoured sweet? Plus a fudge which looked tasty.. surely! haha! Cost me quite some money though, let's not talk about how much it cost. Have some suspense! But.. think over it, in Marks and Spence, everything's absolutely classy, including those eye-catching price tags! lol.. :P

Happily, the both of them had their sweets and went up the building so that we could get to Shaw. Went out of the underpass and saw this real man, painted himself white all over, wearing a black coat and having robotic movements! Amazing huh! Standing there for so long and he's not even giggling or something, what a cool dude.. Then the freak pat suggested to take a picture with him, so she went close to him and that man did a twist sign on her head, nice pic! Well, later that man laughed and smile at us, and then when pat offered to shake hands, the man wanted a hug! lOL.. made pat a lil shocked though. hahaha :D

Went into Shaw and bought the tickets for "Hitch" and of course, I paid for her. I am not gonna repeat this again, haha.. cos it's (read the title). It was around 3pm when we bought the movie tickets for the 4.15pm show. Wonder who mentioned "ice cream" and pat immediately thought of Dairy Queen! Crossed the road again and sat around a table beside DQ. She bought, no I mean I bought Strawberry Cheese Quake, and gay kian bought a Kit Kat Blizzard? lol.. sounds funny. haha.. anyway, both ice cream taste very nice! love them! Then while kian and I was queueing up, 2 ladies behind us (quite good-looking, hahaha), kept pointing at us (kian noticed that). Later we found out that they were talking about us looking alike, lol.. is that suppose to be a compliment to say that I look like kian?! argh.. haha!

By the time we finished our ice cream, it was 4pm! lol.. took quite a while to finish those delicious, ever-tempting ice-cream. Kian and I were complaining about our tummy growing, due to 2 KFCs, 2 Burger Kings, 1 Pizza meal, 1 Ajisen (kian had that the night before). We have not been running regularly!! arhh! We freaked out. haha..

Rushed back to Shaw and I treated the popcorn and drink (kian bought 1 individually himself). Kian asked for ice lemon tea but the staff gave us 2 pepsi! lol.. kian tasted both cups a few times before realising they both were pepsi. So kian went to change the drink to ice lemon tea. Went into the movie theatre at about 4.20? Was a bit late, but the show haven't start, great! Settled down and focused on the damn hilarious movie!! Will Smith is surely my idol! lol.. what a movie! lol.. so funny, laughed but not as much as that freak pat. 2 ang mohs then came much later and then sat right beside pat, which she commented that they were so handsome -.-! lol.. kian said the 2 of them failed the national average standard lo.. haha

Hitch: The male go 90% while the female will go the rest of 10%. lOL!... hahaha =)

After the movie, pat asked kian if there's a AJISEN nearby. I was too afraid to listen, so I covered my ears and bent in front, so that the 2 of'em can discuss where's the nearest AJISEN and have dinner there!!! Lucky I stayed calm after hearing the word "AJISEN" and we proceeded on. haha... went to taka's Ajisen to have our dinner and I chose Miso Char Siew Noodles! Taste REALLLLL great!! Very Very Very rich and tasty soup indeed! cool! Ate soft shell crab as a side dish and it was excellent! "Ajisen's the best" hahaha... keep hearing the staff there say thank you and some other stuff in Jap. Love that experience though.. and the meal was worth the money! =D It's $13.90 per set.. so just imagine, just imagine! The amount which have to be multiplied by two (don forget there's still me who needs to eat), lol!

Oh my oh my.. after the visit to the great Ajisen place, pat suddenly reminded herself of FAMOUS AMOS! O.O !! lol.. didn't freaked out, but then I don't know if it's lucky or not, we still past by Famous Amos, despite my efforts to avoid that route. lol.. went in and took a look at the cookies, but the one pat was looking forward to, had only one piece left. So we left without buying any! aww.. how sad. =p

Took the mrt back and we chatted and chatted. POOF! Reached cck without us realising, haha. I still can see pat's eyes glimming with happiness. lol.. that's great! wahaha.. I kept telling myself "I've never been so broke before" hAhA! But anyway, the I-Pay_Everything Day comes only once in a year? I better confirm this. =x If you guys need comments on this I-Pay-Everything Day, come and look for me personally please, I'll be more than grateful to give you valuble and memorable comments!! =D hahaha..

My wallet didn't really enjoy it's day out though, haha! Had to bandage up those holes in my wallet now! See ya folks! =)

CK the great is back in town! No more sad CK! :)

Saturday Morning :: 05 March :: 0823 hours

Mood: Heart Shattered.

Listening: I'll Stand By You (thx pat, it's really a nice song)
http://renshou.tripod.com/istandbyyou.html

What am I doing now: Sitting in front of the com and waiting for time to pass

Where am I going later: Waiting for 0830hrs to come and set off for st john training.

Why I decided to go: I told wee kian that I'd rather go for the training than stay at home and think of my troubles.

What am I doing now again: 0830 hrs approached. I'm signing off now. See you guys =)

Goodbye my bud...

After much crying alone at home after learning that my best bud, wee kian, is leaving for aj, I decided to start on my blog. It was around 8.45pm when I couldn't control my emotions - after so much of quarrelling and arguements, in the end? I just cannot accept the fact that he's leaving for aj, but I wish to respect his decision too. sigh... why did things have to come to such a ending? why? why why why? Don't tell me, I don't wish to know either. After I bought my dinner and ate alone (as usual) at home, I tuned in to Animal Planet and hope that it could cheer me up somehow. As I watched, I ponder on my best bud, weekian, who told me that he was putting aj as his first choice. I stared at the heartless sms, my heart wrenched each time I cried. This is how cruel the world is. I know it's always painful to make such a decision.. That's his decision anyway. I have no right to interfere his choice of jc. He came to my house this afternoon at around 2pm, which after that we discussed and chatted over this issue. Alot of things which held him back from firmly choosing his jc. Alot. I tried to help him, but I really tried my best, I couldn't do much either to save him from this dilemma. I could only stand by his side, supporting every decision he make. Each time I know that he's not coming to the same jc as I am in, my heart cry. He wouldn't know that how much I'd wish to be in the same jc as he is. But, I have my own reasons too, I cannot help myself either. I cannot hold on to too much things and not let go! Well, to think that he would most probably put pj as his first choice, he chose aj instead. Then, I was wondering what he told me this afternoon. "I will never choose aj as my first choice. The building is so old! Who would want to study in such an old environment which I think the roofs will collapse anytime." I am really wondering, if he really mean that when he said that to me. At first I thought he don't want to go aj is because of the quarrel with chee, but then I realised it was because of the dilapidated surrounding. Fine, then don't go aj! That's why I told him. He left at around 5.30pm, and me feeling sick and real troubled, decided to take a nap. Woke up at 7.37pm, awakened by the sms ringtone and saw that it was from wee kian. His sms wrote "Kiat ah..i think i choose aj..cos i can't imagine that there's no buddies by my side in a foreign jc..sigh.. My decision will disappoint many..sigh.." I shut my eyes the moment I saw this message. I controlled my emotions, thinking through why did he choose aj in the end. Then as I walked to buy my dinner, I thought alot on it.. still not believing that he chose aj instead. From all these things that I've gone through in simply a week's time, I've grown to realise alot of things. and it's alot of concepts which no one's able to understand unless he himself have gone through the painful and cold process. Well, have i understood? Or is this just the beginning? Am I the only person suffering? Or is it many other people? Am I the only one crying? Or is it my best bud is crying too? I don't know. But one thing I've to admit, I am really crying out now. Alone at home. The quietness of the house seemed to engulf me as I cried through the night. Let me recall some things. He wish that I could be in the same JC as he'll be in other than pj, because his worry is that he wanted to take triple science and what if his appeal fails? He wouldn't want to take back the subject combi he's taking now - Maths, Phy, Chem, Econs. If he's taking this combi again, why not go to a better JC and take this? I agree with this statement, so what now? The appeal seems to be a must-succeed. He'd be taking a very big risk if he really put pj as his first choice. sigh.. tell me, what can I do to help him? I've already given him lot's of advices, we've gone through days and days of discussion, regardless on msn or on phone or face to face talk. I couldn't help. The next thing I know is the heated arguement he had with chee (look at those previous blog entries from the 3 of us). Sometimes I see the unreasonable chee trying to argue his way out. Sometimes I think it's wee kian at fault. Sometimes I think I'm the one at fault for not trying to resolve the conflict but further add on to the heat. As I requested for enlightenment, someone scolded us and told us to wake up our ideas and stop pushing the blame to each other. I woke up. Did wee kian and chee woke up as well? Well, I am not sure either. I'm sure we all did our part in giving in? Explanations were accepted and forgiveness were given simultaneously... Finally, the conflict was over. Everything was over. Am I happy? yes. But as I said, we cannot hold on to too many things in life at a time. Am I sad? yes. Although all the arguements are resolved, wee kian would be leaving me soon. I hate this feeling that's going inside me right now. I hate it. Why things have to end this way? Why can't the ending of the quarrel be together with the staying of weekian? Why must only the happy ending of the quarrel be combined with kian leaving for aj? Perhaps I don't understand chee's feelings of having 2 buds leaving him in aj, and now kian's going there to accompany him. I think that he couldn't care much now as kian's going aj. Only will the conflict end when kian decided to go aj? Is it because chee's happy that there's someone to accompany him now and he don't wish to quarrel anymore? I am confused. I am lost. I don't know many things perhaps. I feel so lonely now. I feel so left out. Chee, is this the feeling you're feeling when you chose to go aj at the very start? Can you tell me please? I am really lost now. I need someone to guide me. I need. How should I explain this. There's alot of things in life which cannot be explained. For example, why didn't I go aj with kian when my L1R5 is sure to make it in aj? Why didn't I go with kian to nanyang jc when we both wish to go there as well? There's alot of things holding me back for all these decisions I've made. Well, life's all about making decisions.. and I'll never regret any decisions that I've made. Why regret when you can't change it anymore?

As tears slowly filled my eyes when I write this, I cannot clearly what am I typing now. I don't know how to continue this piece of blog entry anymore, I don't know how should I react to kian's decision. I respect his decision though, but I just cannot bring myself to accept it. I finally tasted the painful feeling of a best bud leaving me. Although the posting results won't be out soon, but having L1R5 10pts and opting for aj as first choice, isn't that almost 99% chance of getting into aj?

For any future joys or woes that might happen to you, I am sorry I couldn't stand by you to help you in your problems. Goodbye my bud...

I am

I am: -Sick of getting all those nonsense -Sick of thinking so much about the JC shit -Sick of thinking too much for friends -Sick of being a good friend -Sick of helping a friend -Sick of trying to stop conflicts from worsening -Sick of seeing friends unhappy -Sick of getting myself involved in the conflict -Sick of making other people sad as well -Sick of sitting in front of the computer and quarrelling -Sick of listening to songs -Sick of eating -Sick every night sitting on my sofa alone and think over those troubles In the end, I became sick. Fever? Is it that I think too much that I turn sick? Or something else? sigh.. I don't know. Just feeling very sick now. Drank lotsa water already, but they don't seem to help. Just wants to lie down on my bed and take a rest... See you guys =) Chee, I hope we can resolve this conflict soon? It's useless to let this continue, when both sides don't even stand to gain. What's the use of blaming each other for something which you all said? Useless. Could this be a test for our 2 years of friendship? =I

Circle Of Friends

Friends

Friends Bonded Together Is Like A Circle.

Every New Friend Made Makes The Circle Larger.

Every Joy Shared Adds More Love.

Every Crisis Conquered Makes The Circle Stronger.

- CK

Lost.. completely.

Lost. Sad. Depressed. Confused. Cried. Slept. Woke up. Cried. Lost again. ='( Why have things came to such a sorry state? Perhaps only TIME will tell.

Enlightenment?

I need someone to enlighten me... I'm really lost now. I seriously understand the meaning of the sentence "Everything changes in life, there's nothing in this world that's permanent, neither will things ever go smoothly." ='( sigh...

Sentosa - Last class gathering?

Today I woke up at 9plus and then went online, after felling asleep while smsing that gay wee kian the night before. He was telling me to meet at 12.30 but I wanted to meet at 10. Conflicts never end though, as usual I felt pissed because I've told pat and the rest that I'd meet them at 10, but then kian, hq and ck? had sudden changes and wanted to meet at 12.30. So kian wanted me to go with him, but..sigh. What a difficult position I am in, and such cases happened to me continuously for 4-5 times in a week. Fuk. I hate this, just driving me totally mad. Okay, enough of moaning, let me continue about the sentosa trip! haha! Then at 9am, kian online! Chatted and I told him I wanted to persuade him to meet at 10. But when I told him that it seemed impossible to change his mind, he said he was fine with it, provided I call hq, ee teng, ck to inform them the change of time and xm to tell him that kian and gang are not meeting with him anymore. Thus I rushed to the phone, hoping to contact hq first through hp. Doh.. his hp's switched off! That means he's asleep! Never mind.. I called his house. No one answered. Yes, he's still sleeping. Next I called ck, no one answered the phone. I called et then, he's the first to answer my phone calls that morning.. haha. After settling et, I called hq's home and I think I woke his mom up, with that kinda greetings in the morning, I expect his mom to be awaken by my phone call! Then I convinced hq to meet at 10, and then he agreed. yay! Was so excited. Last, I called ck, to tell him that everyone's meeting at 10, because I know he goes with the majority :P There was a rule which was, those who were later than 10.10am, will be thrown into the water! I reached cck interchange at 10.10, but that gay jing jing refused to believe me. Kian waited for that forever late (same as me) ck, and then they were late as well. Left cck at about 11plus, after hq and gang took their breakfast, food bought from mac. Reached harbour front and kian insisited on taking the cable car. I agreed immediately as we hardly have to chance to take a cable car together! Then nk, kian, ck, pat and me went to search for the cable car station. Found it, but it was a bloody $11.90, far from the $5.50 jeffrey told us. The worse part was, the staff there treated us like we were some idiots. This is SINGAPORE'S SERVICE INDUSTRY. I repeat, SINGAPORE'S SERVICE INDUSTRY. As ck had mentioned, if it was a foreigner asking at the counter, the treatment would have been totally different. We asked if there was a ferry to sentosa, he just wants to put us off by saying "no ferry." What kind of stupid idiotic moronic indifferent attitude is that?! I bet that moron would have explained 10 times more in detail if it was a european tourist or a woman! Then we took a bus to sentosa in the end, with much time wasted. wahaha.. Reached sentosa palawan beach and all the guys took off their shirt, with chee chee making all the gals jealous because of.. (whoops, not suppose to mention). It's understood by everyone! haha! okay.. played captains ball and was of much fun and laughter! Then the gay part comes in. Was sitting beside chee and kian when gay jing held my legs so tight that I couldn't shake free myself from his clutches!! What's more, ass pat's behind me trying to pull me up(but I was too heavy for her). Kept letting go of me from her palms though, but stupid jing! He grabbed my legs so tightly and then? Was threw into the water(being the first to be thrown into the water is a good experience! haha). I was in the water, but kian and many of them hadn't brought a pair of extra pants, thus couldn't join me. Kian was sand-bathing me all the while, and kept putting lumps of sand into my underwear behind me!! While that nk put big lumps of sand into all my pockets! No wonder I felt heavy in my pants. lol.. gays! After a few hours, kian and I swam to the bridge while the rest played ball games in the water. We both climb up the bridge and then when we jumped down into the water, my back was scrapped by the edge of the wooden bridge and left a red seemingly bloody patch behind my back. After that injury, I didn't went into the water anymore, fearing that salt water would worsen the injury. hahaha.. but nk kept insisting salt water would be better than tap water. O.o Then we went for a bath at around evening, and then kian and gang left for a movie soon after. I stayed at sentosa with pat till around 9pm, with sl and ys! Jing's supposed to wait for us, but he pangseh us. haha! Got myself toasted today and I am feeling all hot inside my body! I didn't get sunburnt though! lol! (I mean till now, there's no signs of sunburnt). Having a dozen of things troubling me now.. I shall sign off. See you guys soon! =)

Jing's B'dae celebration!

Today is Jing's B'dae celebration! Although his b'dae is on next thursday, he wish to have it celebrated on a saturday..haha! As such, no prezzies for jing today except jeffrey who gave him a bag of tasty chocos! We - me, pat, kian, hq, ah neh, geraldine, chun yan, shan, ying siew and ee teng were present. I wasn't sure whose idea it was to go swimming on a b'dae celebration, lol~! looks weird, but nevertheless, it was very fun! We reached chinese garden mrt (but before that we overshot and went to lakeside mrt) and headed for the swimming complex. After we changed into our shorts and the gals into their swimming costumes, we walked briskly towards the swimming pool with ee teng, kian and I trailing behind. The 3 of us couldn't wait and threw ourselves into the inviting pool! The others joined in later... We dipped our whole body into the pool; perfect thing to do for such weather!! Not sure of the time as we played throughout in the pool, some catching games with hq liven up the atmosphere! lol.. Went into the pool at around 12plus and left at... 4plus? Quite long as we spent more than half of the time in the wave pool! lol.. it was interesting with kian and I going around and pulling each other shorts off! The worst part is when et and kian ganged up on me and then my shorts really came off in the pool! Luckily I wore something beneath my shorts if not it would be disastrous! With that et around.. nothing is ever safe..haha! Then we started to pinch each other's nipple (lol.. abit sick), with jing and kian pinching my's the hardest until my right chest turn reddish T.T Next time I am gonna get some revenge and make sure their's swell ! =) haha! Then we went to KFC to have some food and then jing treated us to canandian pizza. well... I ate quite some food at KFC and was rather bloated when I added one piece of pizza into my stomach. Chatted for some time until the last piece of pizza turned cold and then jing asked kian to finish it (he already ate 2 pieces and he don't want anymore pizza). Then when kian refused, jing asked me, and feeling bloated, I rejected the kind offer from jing. I didn't pay much attention when someone suddenly suggested the game of "zhong ji mi ma", the person who guessed the correct number jing is thinking of, will eat the pizza! It was freaky but I was confident I wouldn't be so unlucky and guessed the correct number. "1-200," Jing cried. Whoa.. 200, I thought I should be quite safe, but when it reached the second person, the ranged dropped to 35-50 !! omg! There's still like 5 people before me! When it was hq's turn (was sitting beside me), he only had 2 choices left. 33 or 34 to choose. Oh well.. my luck has always been good. The number jing was thinking was 34. Hq chose 33. T_T I don't even dare to look at the pizza!! lol.. scary pizza. To be sporting, I finished the pizza and ended up with a out-of-shape tummy. Was so bloated then! Then pat started to eat more cookies and I was thinking to myself, her stomach's bigger than my's? This seems impossible though.. haha! We reached Jurong point and went to the movie theatre. Then pat suddenly complained of a stomach upset. It wasn't something serious though, just that she's too full. Then I wonder again, I feel bloated soon after the meal, and she took so long to feel the bloat?! =/ haha... we had 2 different groups who wanted to watch 2 different movies... but JP doesn't have the 1 of the movie, so we set off for causeway point. Reached causeway pt at around 6.15pm and we bought tickets for "Howl's Moving Castle".. It was a fantastic japanese anime! It was filled with laughter and the movie ended off with a touching ending! aww.. =) I shan't elaborate too much lest some of you haven't watch this movie! haha.. Anyway, hApPiE bIrThDaE - JiNg jInG!!

What you do speaks so loud that I cannot hear whatever you say. - Ralph Waldo Emerson

BBQ in sch..! ^^v

It was suppose to be another dry, windy evening. However, heaven just wants to play with us, raining at the wrong place, at the wrong time! lol.. after so many days without rain, we all thought tonight will be as usual. The BBQ was held in particular to have a last gathering for all J1 as the O Levels results will be out on either next friday or the following monday and some of our fellow classmates might be leaving this school.. Feeling rather down to hear this piece of news, I decided to enjoy myself at this BBQ !!

The rain dampen all our excitement, because the BBQ have to be held in the canteen! This seems abit sick though.. haha, imagine all the smoke trapped in the canteen with only the sides as ventilations. It's going to be warm and smoky!

The event started at around 6+pm? With all classes busy preparing their BBQ pits, some were still busy with arranging the tables and benches in the canteen to some kind of formation. haha.. but before that my class had 3 bottles of champange which were destroyed mainly by ming ming, and another of my friend! lol!! They were pulling the table apart when the 3 bottles were standing so close to the fringe of the table and I did hasten the fall of the bottle by pulling the table more apart (xm I bet you din realise this, haha! I don dare to say! haha!)

Nevertheless, the mess was cleared up soon and we shifted our stuff to another table. lol.. Then the BBQ pit was set up mainly by some of the guys (including me and ming) hahaha... ming kept putting in those fire starters while I fan! lol.. so fun, fanning all the smoke and charcoal ashes to hq's class in front of us!

Next, my gang (some good friends I've made, plus ming ming who is already one) were stucked at the BBQ pit for the next 2 hours or so making all the food - chicken hotdogs, satays, otahs, chicken wings, stingrays.. and chicken breast! lol!... we had the most food i guess, cook until we all sweat in front of that seemingly oven! I was in-charge of those chicken wings which I burnt 6 of them, and caused 4 otahs to catch fire! what the! I don have such poor BBQ skills okay, hahaha. Then I decided to try out the chicken breast, which it turned out to be quite a piece of delicacy (=/).. lol! I turned those chicken breasts into some "over-cooked chicken cutlet", what the, so black but they taste fantastic in the inside though, yay! Finally a successful piece of BBQ work!

But I only ate about 4 hotdogs and 2 sticks of satay, lol.. I spent all the time BBQ-ing the food for people to eat, together with a few of my friends who think BBQ-ing is more fun than eating! Agreed! As we were BBQ-ing, we kept seeing our classmates walking round and round the running tracks, and we made some comments like "wa, our class very romantic hor? we BBQ here, they moonbath arh?", "oi! how many times must they walk round the track? romantic sia!" and "wa lao, again, now still walking! moonbath very shiok meh? later we go try"

At about 8pm, I asked steven and 1 another good friend to go moonbath! hahaha! Steven took 1 hotdog while I took 1 satay and we started to walk down the track. We walked and moonbathed, lol.. then arriving at the other end of the track, the 3 of us lied down at the tracks at star gazed!! hahahaha! attracted alot of attention from though, but it was all dark! We called another good friend to join us and then the 4 of us lied on the middle 4 tracks out of the 6 available tracks!
We decided to play a trick on passer-bys. By pointing our fingers from right to left, and shouting "shooting-star!" the people passing us really looked up and they look so funny! They follow what ever we said! LOL.. so funny!! we're all laughing like we've never seen starts before.

*xm, see la don bring hp, I can't contact you so you missed out the fun of star-gazing! hahaha!

At about 8.30, we were chased back to the canteen to clear up.. the even ended at about close to 9pm after all the clearing up.

I went to the concourse to meet up with pat, kian and hq. I sat down feeling tired and wet (due to the wet tracks I lied on earlier on). Then pat started to spray water on me using kian's shooting nike water bottle, and then I sprayed back. Then it's not all over yet, she went to provoke jing jing, hq and soon leng! lol.. later everyone started to chase her to get that freak nike water bottle back to get revenge. However, water games normally don't have a winner! lol!! We all got wet! and me? I received almost half the amount from the fully filled nike water bottle.. =p

All of us then went home together, with me dozing off 45 minutes later after I reached home! lol.. I think it's the PE which wore me out... haha, oki, see ya guys!

The Tale of the Nor Hiong (Part II)

Here comes part II guys! lol.. that gay ass brought his nor hiong this morning, and as usual, he gave me another (more) cheeky smile. =') <-- kian's smile. "I won't drop the nor hiong this time!" assured kian. lol.. he squeeze his nor hiong out of his side pocket slowly and handed that long-waited nor hiong to me. I took it, smelt it, pressed it, and realised it was quite warm! lol.. another fruitful attempt by kian to warm the nor hiong up for me early in the morning. Again, I'm touched ( =p), waahaha..

I ate the "world's best, most tasty, most delicious, most appealing and fantastic" nor hiong kian's mom cook! Was quite tasty though, wahahaha.. nice la. Then I told kian about my ah ma also making the nor hiong some time ago last year.

Today we all pon school!! My class was supposed to end at 5 today, but due to Temasek poly open house, we pon school! haha! Xiang Ming, Kian and I accompanied hong qi, soon leng, lee hwee, xing yun and michelle to ten mile junction there to buy food for the BBQ tml evening in PJ.. They went to a big supermarket in ten mile junction called Sheng Siong, which they bought quite alot of stuff like chicken wings, marshmellows, crabsticks, chicken hotdogs.. then we decided to leave for lot 1 after spending some time at ten mile junction which was a pretty boring place with very few people...

We walked to a bus stop nearby and as usual, xm, kian and I walked behind, talking cock. The 5 of them walked in front as they hurried each other to walk faster, they forgot about us and then board the 175 bus without waiting for us! lol! saw that ass soon leng giving us a guilty and cheeky wave inside the moving bus though, wahaha.. then hq smsed kian to tell us to meet them at lot 1. what the.. so funny, they went up the bus without us, do kian and I seem so insignificant? lol!

well.. xm went home after seeing kian and I to the Petir LRT, and then we met hq they all in lot 1 NTUC. They bought more stuff then! lol.. so many things to carry, then kian and I helped those poor souls to carry. They went to michelle's house to pack all the stuff i guess, but I did not go since I had some other things to do.. kian planned to come my house after michelle's as her house is just a few hundred metres walk down the street from my block.

At around 4 plus, that gay came and then he greeted my ah ma with utmost respect ( o.O).. lol, so funny his face. wahahaha..he came in and to our surprise, my ah ma was also making nor hiong!! lol! I didn't realised it when I came home previously! kian was like so interested in the nor hiong and then my ah ma, being the most friendliest and having the best hospitality, treated kian with a tube of cute nor hiong. lol.. then kian munched them in my room happily away..

Then here comes the most critical moment, the most attention seeking stuff that ever occurred! my ah ma handed kian an Ang Bao. lol.. then kian complimented my ah ma saying she's very friendly? (did you say that kian?)

Then kian wore his creative thinking cap and drew in my physics lecture book! At first I thought he was only drawing using pencil, later he coloured his drawingS with coloured pens! Lol! what the.! but it was just something to liven up those boring wordy pages.. lol thx!

Kian kept persuading me to on my com but I refused, and after about 45 minutes of ##%@#^$, I gave in and on the com. lol.. we chatted online using my account and then played some gunbound which we both lost to a f-fing fellow for about 10 over matches consecutively!! we were so F-fed up lo.. lol, cos given our well trained skills, we couldn't have lost to such a noob fellow! So pissed.. lol (xm don leave comment saying it's becos you not playing then we lost)

oh ya! my pineapple tarts!! kian finished up my pineapple tarts!! (lol.. no la, left a few only, then he finished them, with some kind help from me) wahaha.. he left at 7pm after saying that my bed very comfortable to lie on..lol

And one more interestin thing to note!! I can see kian's house's living room from my room window! His house is like quite far yet I can see! Then we made a deal that we shall both wave once kian reaches his home. He smsed me to wave, and as I looked into his living room (which is very very small from my window), I see a red figure waving at me. Then I called kian and he told me he was wearing red! lol!.. this is fun! Then I waved back, he couldn't quite make out which one was me and then he told me to bend down a bit, which then he confirmed that he saw me! haha! so funny.. and I wonder what we looked like with both of us waving frantically at the windows!

I am going to wave again now, see ya guys!! =p

Fate knows where you are going, but it is up to you to drive there. - Michelle Keesling

Another Tale - The Tale of the Nor Hiong (Part I)

lol.. kian suddenly sms me on valentines' day night to ask me to try his mom's nor hiong, which he described it as something long, wrapped in bean skin, with prawn paste, veggie, prawns, water chestnut, egg, and it's just simply fantastic. Something like this.. lol! what a tempting nor hiong, haha! Then I said keep saying I will be going to his house straight away to eat that nor hiong (since he only lives about a hundred metres from my block), until he got f-ed up, haha! However, I didn't go his house of course, cos it's already late, about 11 plus. Then he said that he will bring the nor hiong the following morning which I'll meet him to go to school together. As usual, I was late for 5 minutes and kian was already standing there and waiting, the all white figure was pretty easy to recognise from far though.. lol. ;p I met up with him no longer than a minute later, and looking at his cheeky smile, I knew that he brought his nor hiong which he woke up early to heat it up for me, so touched..haha! He happily stuffed that cute nor hiong into his side bag pocket and what then? It was so **** hard to take it out, and the next moment, he shouted "AHH!" I turned around and looked. Guess what. The nor hionf wasn't in the plastic bag anymore! He did bring it! But, it was on the ground. lol!! Then we were like stunned for 5 seconds, before he picked it up and stuff it back into the plastic bag. I held the nor hiong a while and realised it was still quite warm, and the smell is simply marvellous!! It was so tempting and delicious looking (or smelling), that I told kian if I could just wash the nor hiong with some water and then eat it! LOL.. of course with his powerful nike shooting water bottle to clean it. hahaha.. so nice lor, the smell. sigh, just couldn't taste his mom's nor hiong. But kian still promised me to bring me another the next morning! woo hoo! lol.. yum yum, *grins.

Wisdom is knowing what path to take... Integrity is taking it.

HappiE Chinese New Year ~!

Yes folks! I wanna wish everyone a very happi and prosperous chinese new year and for those who are working, more money go your way! and for those who're studying, I wish that all of our studies will certainly improve!! =) May everything go smoothly for everyone in this year of chicken! =P

SaSuKe !!! wk, let's fight out with my SaSuKe vs GaArA !! hooiii yooi !!