Basic Military Training Status: Completed!

Here are some pics taken on 13 June 2007. My BMT passing out parade!

Here comes Cougar Coy!

Cougar coy lead by MWO Raymond Tan!

Dad putting on the jockey cap..

:)

Presenting to you...

POP!!!!!!!! WOO HOOOO!

A random pic with my dad before leaving for ferry terminal..

A pic with my OC!! wow cool. haha.

Goodbye.. Pulau Tekong. Thanks for the great experience, and things I gain in the days ahead.

An hour before the passing out parade begins, a sergeant major; Guardsmen, told us, "A soldier will never ask for reasonable time, because there will never be any."

命运

在某年某月某日。。。

。。。真的是命运吗?

:))

He who laughs, LASTS.

*****

Just some random thoughts that I blogged it down. Hmm. I've lotsa random ideas though, gotten em all in army. It's kinda good in a way that I do realised many things which I once took it for granted. yup.

This is life.

*****

A person without a sense of humor is like a car... without shock absorbers.

Endure! n move on!

sigh. Don't really feel good these few weeks.

Rushed down to kss to check out st john training after I booked out yesterday afternoon at about 1.45pm. Heard that training's till after 4pm. haha. great. Feels good to be back in school. And of course, seeing fellow buddies in SJ, and not forgetting relieving the joy of watching juniors training hard. Best moments I've ever enjoyed.

But those moments will not last. Nothing lasts forever. Time passes so fast that before I realised, it was already 7.45pm after we'd dinner together. Heard everyone talking about 'Kiat's Facts' by mr brown..lol.

Went over to zhen's house to watch FA cup final...boring match. Ate about 4 packets of potato chips plus many biscuits. Feel asleep at some intervals...was too tired. Left at about 12.35am, missed the last LRT. Then got lost in bukit panjang before I caught a cab home. So tired that I couldn't think straight and navigate my way around.

Reached my ah ma house and slept straight away. Haven slept on this bed for ages already. The bed I've been sleeping on for the past 7-8 years? Feels good. But I didn't give it too much thought, fell asleep as soon as I grabbed my pillow and blanket.

Woke up this morning at 8.40am, brushed my teeth n fell asleep again. Woke up at 11.30am. Feeling the fatigue from the intense training, and of course the field camp which was ....... :) The first thing that came to my mind is that I've to book in tonight... and the cycle repeats itself again. yet another week.

Last week I nearly cried in camp. Didn't like it at all. missed my ah ma very much.

Feeling very down as I jotted all these down.

But we guys don't have a choice, do we? That explains the title of this post.

******

Checked my email this morning. Got acceptance from University of Queensland for Bachelor of Medical and Veterinary Surgery... Veterinary Science faculty!! Damn shocked. Have to accept the acceptance by october 2007... they only take in 32 international students per year. But I'll wait for Uni of Murdoch to reply. Hope they accept me!

******

I am searching...not for anything else but searching for joy. It's really torturing not to find joy since then. I seemed to lost the smile I had, the laughter that would accompany the smile.

This ain't easy at all. It ain't fun.

I want to stay home with my ah ma. I want to go out have a game of soccer with my buddies like zhen and nash. I want to sleep on my own bed. I want to eat home cooked food everyday. I want to be able to catch up with my friends. I want to have a weekend that I don't have to think about booking in on sunday evening.

But hell no. These previliges are taken away.

"When the going gets tough, you'll only get tougher." How tough have I gotten? Can I get any more tougher? I'm beginning to doubt. Where is the limit, or is the sky my limit?

I'll end my post here. Need to get some rest. Next 2 weeks is another hell for me. It's really a constant struggle emotionally and mentally.

All the best friends...cherish what you've now. especially your loved ones... trust me.

11B

12 April 2007. The day...

I lost my identity as a civilian,
I shaved my hair,
I became a soldier.

I still have not acquire the right mindset to become a soldier. It is really an uphill task to try to tell yourself that you ain't a civilian anymore. I don't know. But it's tough.

In camp itself, every night I'd shower, followed by washing my laundry. And then, I'd look out of my bunk, only for an overwhelming piece of forestry to engulf me. Pitch darkness in the forest, mostly covered by the dense canopy layer. I'd then ask myself, what am I protecting; as a soldier?

Is it the country or is it my family?


‘ 國家’。沒國就沒有家。

我問一問自己﹐
真的是這樣子嗎?

說時在﹐我還沒找到答案。

*****

27 April 2007. I'm back on mainland. The feeling is really superb. After getting off the fastcraft at SAF Ferry Terminal, I took my first step on mainland!! woo hoo! Excellent. hahaha. I may sound stupid, but only fellow recruits will understand this feeling. Yeah.

Till another time I'd come online, TAKE CARE n SEE YA soooon. :))

cheers

WHAT THE..??!

As per normal, I went for my driving lesson at the driving centre. Lesson's at 6.00pm. I reached at 5.57pm, with a full bladder yet still needa print the reporting slip from the darn machine. Chiong-ed into the toilet and... of course, pee-ed.

Then there was this joker who stood beside me, er.. I mean he was using the urinator beside mine okay. HE WAS SMS-ING AND PEEING AT THE SAME TIME.

I mean, what the.. how the heck did he managed to do that. Okay, QUIT UR WILD IMAGINATIONS, GIRLS. LOL.

he still did it btw. cos I friggin saw it!! That stupidly freaks me out and stupidly wasted another 30 seconds staring at the mirror when I washed my hands to think about that joker.

Next, chiong-ed out to print my reporting slip and found my instructor, then got into the car and drove off.

Please for goodness sake, guys. When you pee, just pee. Don't try to act pro and do funny things!! wa lao! LOL

Seven April 2007

Last Saturday marks the last SJ training for me, at least for the next 3 months; or even next one year. Yes, I'm talking about the compulsary National Service. I'm not saying that I dislike it or what so ever, but I'll just accept it and "chiong whenever I'm told to do so". Just do it !

``
Today's already tuesday.. one day left for me.
``

Went for training last sat.. had mock fac. Den it was 1230 hours. Choon Siong and Ong told me to change into PT kit, as there'll be a changing parade.

"Okay..." I thought to myself.

After which CS wanted me to accompany him to the staff room to photocopy the casualty report..

"Alright..." I thought to myself; yet again.

Frigging photocopier machine keeps jamming up! Took me like 20++ minutes to try to photocopy 20 sheets of reports!

After I'm done, I walked back to SJ room.. then kenneth called me in because he wanted to show the NA team the right way of taking blood pressure.

"duh.. crazy ass" But I went in anyway

Took off my shoes and went onto the bed.

After that Chin Boon, Vincent, Wei Xiang, William came in and force me to straighten my legs and lie down!! Then each of them grabbed each of my limbs and lifted me off!

OFF I GO! @$@$%@%^!

Out of the SJ room..down the stairs..and onto the parade ground.

I remembered someone took off my socks.. den I turned and saw...........

GERALDINE !! omg. SHE HAD LIKE 3 WATER BOMBS IN HER HANDS. The next thing I knew was that one water bomb flew straight towards my face; with full force.

Then, everyone knew what follows. It was like I trespassed a territory; which it was not meant to be. And the local natives launched a defensive attack on the trespasser! bombs rained for at least half an hour. I was shot in the neck the most, back, chest, face and head.

But hey! I'm still alive! "yea of course. the bombs contained water -.- "

Okay..they had 400++ water bombs with them!! omg! I had NONE.

After their ammo went dry, they took on the bigger guns. Pails. Filled from half to full tank, they just came showering onto one's head, without the slightest warning. Stealth. They crept up on trespasser silently; like how a leopard would prey on a chicken. As they raced against time, pails of water soon overwhelmed the trespasser. It all happened within minutes. There wasn't any time for a breather or to take shelther.

I surrendered. Was seriously wet throughout and inside-out. Everyone was wet in the end. Very soaked! oh my.

Then it was time to fall in. I can't remember it was cabbage and who..requested for siying to fall in too! In the end it wasn't falling in, kept pushing her to take photo with me! lol. I guessed the most excited ones were those who aren't taking the photo! omg. But it's alright.. since everyone was so high and crazy about me and siying taking a photo, so I stepped in to pose for Ms Vanitha's camera. haha.

and wait ! I heard siying blushed! omg. was the sun too hot? o.O! I couldn't see the blush anyway..was without my spects. no worries, at 200 degrees, I still can see clearly everyone's face!

Super fun alright..den we played captains ball. This time round I realised the girls have improved quite abit. Although they were super violent. At 3.30pm we ended the game and it's time to wrap up everything. It was rather sad.. just like that I'm leaving..

Thanks everyone for planning this water bomb for me! So I was the only one who didn't know what's going on until the end! huh! hahaha.

Thanks the cuttest bunch for the prezzie and card! =)

Thanks to another crazy bunch who showered me with their holy water from the second level! LOL.

Really appreciate everything.. thanks all my fellow officers for joining in the conspiracy and fun too..

It's time for me to sign off once again! I wish those who're studying all the very best in exams, those waiting for uni application good luck and every other body a smooth sailing future ahead! =)

Till the next time we'll meet, see you!

The Classic (클래식)

The Classic. Finally a day where I found the right mood to watch this movie. It was 2pm in the afternoon when I thought I would spend my time watching this 130min korean romance story. It is really a great movie, very touching indeed. Directed by kwak Jae-Yong (곽재용). I think he really did a superb job.

Seldom tears will flow because of a romance story, but it was an exception this time, at least for myself. The only romance story that touched me so deeply in a decade. Indeed, it is a classic; and it will always be.

Son Ye-jin

Jo Seung-woo

Jo In-Seong

Pictures from http://www.hancinema.net/korean_movie_The_Classic.php

What a movie..at least the last one before I enlist.. 的確不可不信緣。。。

Time's running out

Time's really running out! I guessed it's the same for my fellow NS men. lol. Next thursday shall be the day where I will put down everything and commit myself full time 24 hours to national service.

When some of my friends are working..
When some of my friends are having breakfast..
When my brother's still sleeping..
When my sister's in school..
When my ah ma's at the market..
When my SJ juniors are in school studying..
When I am still disorientated..lost at what to do,

When it's 9.30am.. It's time to leave my house..at least it will be another 2 weeks before I return to mainland again.

I'll miss everything, lotsa things. too much to be mentioned.

But I guessed it's just another phase of life for me. Another challenge that is.

oh darn. I shouldn't feel how I am feeling now.

:) I smiled. But it was fake. The thought of leaving my ah ma drives me crazy. I really wish for her health and well being. Hope she strike toto or 4D! YEA :))

As I once told my juniors 3 years back... "A second of sadness equals to a second of happiness lost." So seems like it isn't worth to be sad! haha! Everyone prays for happiness and why lose it when you are the one who can do something bout how you feel?

Take lotsa care people, my sister (she rox!), my ah ma, my parents.

Signing off,
CK

Eleven

11 more days! That's fast..lol. went HQ check out the money counting thingy after my driving lesson this morning. Was there at about 1.30pm. Planned to meet choon siong and go army market buy my army stuff.

In the end me, choon siong, aisuan, peiling and yan rong had lunch together at golden mile food centre. haha.

Went up to the army market after lunch..walked past the many shops selling army stuff. Wah, see liao damn sian. I don't even have the slightest interest in them... *shrugs

Next saturday will be my last training day with Kranji St John before I enlist. Though I'll miss the training sessions and the fun everyone had on saturdays, but at some point in my life, I will have to part with them.

I seriously hope that KSJ will soar higher and roar!! =)

What's in store for me in 11 days' time? Stay tuned for more details! =.=

Lastly.. when I'm not around, I wish that my ah ma will still stay as healthy!! =]!!

*Dream a little dream. How do you define little?

Murdoch

Okay, I've submitted every necessary documents to Murdoch last night. Now hope for the best! Although chances are slim..but I've confidence alright. lol

Last year they had 5 Singapore A level graduates applying to Murdoch..and only 1 got in. wah lao. On top of that, they only accept 52 international students per intake! oh god.

Uni of Queensland is no better off, they accept only 30 international students per intake. diao. And for anyone who come across this blog post; FYI: The Uni of Queensland have made Physics a compulsary subject in the admission requirement for Vet Science.

However, the 2 main subjects will still remain Maths and Chemistry. Do well for them peeps!

Eh, sorry. What I have said only pertains to Vet Science..so don't get mislead.

Yep, hope I HUAT for this admission. Huat la! lol. =p

=)))

Personal Statement to be submitted

Experiences with animals

My desire to help and protect the animals started with personal experiences which involve learning to care for my own pets (including a dog, rabbits, hamsters, a budgie, ornamental fish and koi fish). As I learned to be more competent in handling certain animals, I start pet-sit my friends’ pets when they went abroad on holidays. Moreover, I would often monitor my neighbours’ pets (such as the rabbit) before, during and after the process of giving birth. This is so that I can help observe the rabbit’s health and then give advices to the owner such as not changing its eating habits or environment during the first few weeks after giving birth.

In order to satisfy my thirst for knowledge in the field of animal care and the different behaviors they exhibit, as well as the public’s attitude towards keeping pets in homes, I volunteered at the Society for Prevention of Cruelty to Animals (SPCA). During my years of service with the SPCA, duties like cleaning up cages and feeding the animals regularly have not only become a second nature, but most importantly, they increased my understanding with them as well as their eating habits tremendously. Moreover, I learned more valuable lessons such as dealing with nasty pet owners who ill-treat their pets, including irresponsible individuals who abandon their pets as though they are toys. My eagerness to expand my knowledge and increase my animal experience motivated me to volunteer at the Singapore Kennel Convention 2005. Throughout the time I spent there, I took advantage of the opportunities to gain maximum exposure and interact with the many breeds of dogs.

To further widen my horizon in the veterinary profession, I opted to work in a veterinary clinic during my school vacations. In the clinic, I learnt to deal with animals with different illnesses/diseases and various injuries. With specific instructions from the veterinarian, I acquired invaluable skills on how to provide the necessary care for the ill animals. My job scope involves the caring of the chinchillas, rabbits, dogs and cats. Throughout my time in the clinic, I was also taught to compromise or deal with demanding pet owners.

Why I want to become a veterinarian

The experiences I have had with the animals throughout the years have consistently reaffirmed my passion and commitment for the good and welfare of them as well as my ambition to become a veterinarian. My belief in becoming an accomplished veterinarian has certainly been strengthened through work experiences in a veterinary clinic as well as the volunteer work with SPCA. I learned to appreciate and understand the challenging and diversified role that veterinarians satisfy, and thus look forward the challenges that await me. Lastly, I believe a career that involves my passion for animal wellness as well as interpersonal interaction will be highly gratifying.

Why I chose Murdoch University as my preferred school

Murdoch University, with state-of-the-art learning facilities, will provide me with greater confidence and vigor in pursuing my degree in Veterinary Medical and Surgery. The dedicated and committed academic tutors will allow me to maximize my learning capabilities, so that I too can be part of the advancing veterinary medical knowledge. In addition, I believe that the animal farm in the campus will make veterinary studies and practices to be done competently. I look forward to a rewarding experience in the Murdoch University campus.

Out-of-job

Yesterday marks the last day of me working for Dr Quek and Ms Judy Low, at Zhangde Primary School. My team of colleges were certainly nice people, and of course, very sociable. The four of us worked very well together. Although working hours are irregular, I liked the job!

Often while waiting for students to report, we doodle on the whiteboard, take stupid poser photos and talk rubbish (my fav!) !! Hmm, let's see. I drew bob dog, teenage mutant ninja turtles..and Vignesh's (college) face. HAHA. Not forgetting the combined effort between me and June to draw the twelve zodiac signs!!

As boring as it may sound, taking blood pressure allows me to meet new students everyday! Some kids are just plain naughty alright! Some are scary. Some are...funny. real funny. *laughs

Reached home at 6pm..took a short nap till 7.40pm. Ate dinner, and slept at 8pm. zzz. was very very tired. Have been sleeping for less than 5 hours each night for the past 4 days..

Shall help out at hui shan's pet clinic for the remaining days.. 15 days left. Wonders what awaits me in the near future. lol

amingo adios!

Bangkok!

Will be away in bangkok to visit a friend! and of cos shopping. lol! Going on sunday morning, back on wednesday late night! Till then, cya!

Education.

Time: 1130 hours

Cooked a bowl of noodles. Placed it on an old wooden table in the living room. "World's Funniest Videos" was screened on TV. ah ma talked to me about money matters again. As much as I hate to talk about it, it was inevitable. She asked why I didn't wanted to study in Singapore Uni. (She mentioned about me doing badly in A lvls, not as good as my cousin - liwen, that's why I couldn't get a place in singapore uni.) She thought so because of the fact that I took only 3 As, and not 4 As.

As usual, she talked about my father again, my uncles, aunts. How they struggled during the 1960 s. Yes, I really understand the situation. Well, ah ma tends to stray off tangent with regards to the main topic of discussion. It's okay, I'll listen (perhaps the 20th time I'm listening to the same thing. I guess it's normal for them to be a little more naggy)

I suddenly felt that I'm in bedlam. I've no comments about what she said. I told her I wanted and had to study in Australia because singapore uni doesn't offer the course I have always wanted to study! Singapore does not have the space and facilities to support veterinary studies. On the other hand, what benefit has singapore got to gain from producing top veterinarians? It does not do the economy any good, and talking about Singapore's pillars of economy, the revenue veterinarians generate compared to the biomedical or manufacturing sector is kind of negligible.

*suddenly goes back into family politics again. It's really bad. my aunt who lives with me doesn't wants to ask me personally how I did in A lvls, and always talk to ah ma behind my back. She thought I didn't do well in A lvls.

During the 2 years in JC, I worked hard, studied and achieved the grades I wanted. Okay I am not as smart as many of my classmates, but when times were difficult during my J1, I told myself I need to hold on, I do not expect any support from my parents (it is impossible), I found my own source of motivation and I carried on. At that time, I didn't know how to achieve A grades for all my subjects. I felt seriously lost.

Then in year 2, I did badly for my common tests and had to drop my 4th A subject. It was very disheartening. I can only shout into a window, nothing larger than the size of my fist; my heart. Who can I turn to? I turned to myself in the end. All my father know was that he signed a letter indicating that I dropped biology, because I didn't do well in my exams. It is really not easy at all to find the right focus in study when you are constantly bombarded with issues like the aftermath of parents divorced, quarrels, moving house...etc.

I picked myself up and told myself since I cannot do anything about the family politics, I will not let it affect my studies; why should I anyway. As the saying goes "When the going gets tough, you'll only get tougher!" Very true. I believed in myself, that I can do it, and will do it. I am determined to prove to my father that I'm worth something, not one who flops and fumble.

Finally, I gotten my results. A-A-B. Relatively good enough for me to enrol into the veterinary faculty. But now what ah ma said really is hurting. It makes me wonder, what have I achieved for the past 2 years, what have I done and what did I aimed for?


I am thinking, if I can get my AVA scholarship successfully, that would be the best. It pays for all tution fees and accomodation. In return, 6 years of work with AVA. Hmm. There're always buts. What if...?

ah ma suggested me getting enrolled into singapore uni to continue my education, but as I've always said, what for? It's wasting money, and I will have no direction after spending years and getting a degree in singapore.

*didn't wanted to cry, and I hate crying.

so now what. To give up being a vet? Then the question now is, so what have I been trying to aim for all these years?

I pray a little prayer. Silently.

Vet Science at Murdoch...

*Ended a 2-hour meeting in NUH with my colleges..

TIME: 1605 hours

I trudged along the concrete pathway, filled with dried fallen leaves, alongside Red Dot Traffic building. It is a building that stretches for at least 200 metres in length, and it's painted ALL RED. The whole building's really RED! inside out! A historical building..with some great eatery corners.

I feel wobby, wibbly, willy, wooky..serious headache. In a state of intricacy.

Walked past the RDT building to reach the Ministry of National Development (MND) building..needa get to the Aus-Ed; Uni-Ed agency located inside. Murdoch uni rep. and Uni of Queensland rep is here from 3-5pm! Got into the office and sat down. Trying hard to focus and relax..my mind's in serious chaos. *wobbles

Saw the agent whom I've seen so many times, at so many places!! Mr Ferdinand Tan!! and his trusty college, Mr Kelvin Mok! haha! So nice to meet them again.

Waited for about 10 min before I get my chance to talk to the guy from Uni of Queensland..asked him about the enrolment, the no. of international students they take in each year. He replied "about thirty or thirty-two each year". Okay, seems like competition's rather tight.. and then he told me the school's going to make Physics a compulsary subject for vet science entry requirement from next year. okay, I love physics. lol

Next I met the lady from Murdoch Uni, she's Ms Holly Croft. I asked again about the no. of international students they accept each year..she said about 50, but in the midst of increasing the intake to about 60. That's better..for a good school for vet science. Next she told me from this year onwards, the degree of vet medical/surgery will require 6 years instead of 5 years. So I asked her the reason for extending the period of course and she said according to the American Veterinary Association, the syllabus' for vet science's increased and they didn't want to compromise some other topics which previously was taught. Hence..yea.

hmm. This bothers me. Another year in australia means I require more money..very sad. wished I could talk to my parents about this. It ain't easy to talk to them afterall.

SMSed my dad and told him about the new 6-year degree..got a neutral response from him again..kinda expected it though. =/

*vexed.
what to do..? I asked myself.

What the ??

oh god. wtf. part of my teeth got chipped off when I woke up this morning. that sucked. now I'm bothered by that. sian. WHO STOLE PART OF MY TEETH ??!?!

Tooth fairy? probably. -.-

Rocky Balboa!

Watched Rocky Balboa! Directed by Sylvester Stallone, starring Sylvester Stallone! Watched his first movie 5-6 years back and got very inspired and motivated. Loved his movie as always! Get inspired by the former heavyweight champion! Rocky! It's a true life story though, great story.

Disclaimer: Pictures taken from http://movies.yahoo.com/movie/1809278368/photo/stills

University Exhibition at suntec!

It was a miserable saturday night..where liverpool lost to man utd on home soil, thanks to a stoppage time goal from O'shea. wtf sia....it's like ferdinand who did this the previous time when Liverpool met Man utd at Old Trafford. @%@%#$^#

But LIVERPOOL's still the club with fantastic history and players! "You'll never walk alone" whoa.. great fans...After O'shea's stoppage time goal, the cheers from the fans singing 'you'll never walk alone' is truly amazing...As LIVERPOOL supporters, we never give up on the players, even with a second left to full-time!

Okay..then I applied for a scholarship under Agri-Food and Veterinary Authority (AVA) online..9 long pages..took me an hour to complete it. hmm, the scholarship comes with a 6-year bond. Since it's the only scholarship offered for Veterinary Science, I'll never let it slip past my hands!

Pray hard that I'll get accepted!! I truly wants to become a vet!

Sunday noon...brought my parents along to suntec city career seminar. showed them the Australian Universities' booths..and the agency Aus-Ed. Met Mr Ferdinand Tan again..he was the one who spoke to me the previous year when he went to PJC for an exhibition. He saw me and asked if he had seen me before, I replied 'yea, you're Ferdinand Tan. we met in PJC.' hahaha. He's kinda shocked, but he remembered me alright.

Okay, we talked about vet science again, but this time it was different, I had my results with me. The other time we spoke, the atmosphere was totally different, I haven't even took my prelims. Same stuff again, 4 universities offered vet science, Murdoch Uni, Uni of Queensland, Uni of Sydney, Uni of Melbourne. Definitely my first choice was Murdoch Uni! He knew me well enough already..then I asked about application.

Hmm. seems like much of the stuff I already knew..so to double confirm, I asked him again. So I just need to submit by application, together with my GCE A Levels certificate to the various uni. But he said I can forget about Uni of Melbourne cause they only accept straight As students. So I applied for Murdoch Uni, Uni of Queensland and Uni of Sydney.

Hopefully and really, I want to get into Murdoch University!! I really liked the school campus, with their own farm in the campus itself, it makes vet studies more efficient and convenient! Hmm. Hope to hear a reply from these universities soon..although I'll be entering in July 2009, but an early reply will surely save me from all worries!

Thanks to Rashidah..my st john junior, I applied for the AVA scholarship. I searched for months and I never knew about this scholarship. Well, I hope for the best..! =))!

Release of A level RESULTS! 2nd mar 07

Oh dear!! never felt so reluctant to leave house for school, each footstep seems heavier as I trod on. Today was sunny..and good la. As I was telling Ms Oh (my CT) the night before that today will be 雨過天晴, cos it has been raining for the past 2 days!!

Then my conversation with Mr Tan (the chem chicky noob) always revolves around this word ---> 發. Or to pronounce it: HUAT. Good what, HUAT during new year, den HUAT during A lvls too. hmm. I told him I'd HUAT today, LOLS. Then I purposely wore red, to signify prosperity. hahaha. If I seemed too superstitious, well, for the sake of A lvls, WHY NOT. haha.

Huat la huat la huat la.

Had sleepless nights throughout the week, I bet the teachers are more anxious than us. Mr Tan was awaken by some noobies in the middle of the night, no wonder he came online after 12 midnight...haha. Ms Oh also..I think she went asking everyone about As in her msn contacts la! lol! what a miserable night. misery loves company; how true.

okay..I queued up for my results..paid for that lame $51.40, and flipped over my result slip.
Mathematics - A
Physics - B
Chemistry - A

okay, then I hugged ms oh on the spot!

Rather satisfied with my results..although no straight As..but I could apply for Veterinary Science now! Shall go down IDP apply tomorrow.. =)

Finally, I passed the A levels hurdle! I shall become a Vet!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I hereby express my most sincere gratitude and appreciation to:
Ms Marlene Oh (CT and bio tutor)
Mr Tan BP (chem noob cum joker)
Mr Chua PT (maths)
Mr Loh SB (physics craze)
Mr Siraj (funny GP tutor)

Special thanks to the chem noob who is always available on phone or msn for us! he's really a great tutor. we all owe it to him.

hmm, although I dropped bio in May last year, but I still think ms oh is a very committed tutor, hope you don't miss us too much! haha.

Not forgetting all those whom I studied with before As!!

Cya! =))))

mmm

hmm. Results out in about 2 hours' time..I'm at home now. Having Lunch. My mind's seriously blank. what to do. Can't be helped either. Time is cruel, it doesn't wait. So which is more scary? Time or Results?

=/

Puppies sunbathing!

A cool 5 minute video on puppies sunbathing.

CHINGAY PARADE!!

WEE. Went for training this morning and then headed to HQ at 3pm for briefing on tonight's Chingay first aid coverage. What a great event. Excited of cos, but also a little scared. During the briefing together with the cadets, I was actually rather scared, thinking about all possible cases that might happen, and then how to react.

I was in charged of zone 1, responsible for the cadets and accountable for the whole area. Stressed. Reached zone 1 at about 6pm. People started to crowd around barricade as Bryan Wong and Michelle Yeo led the pre-event chingay parade! Brought Laura and May towards the viewing gallery..including the president/VIPS stand, den saw Bryan Wong with the newscaster filming LIVE! woo. close up with the celebrities.

Geraldine and siying stationed near the entrance of the barricades. I didn't knew it was their first PD..and to such a magnificent event. whao, great experience lei. haha. I stood beside them to talk to them about such duties..what should a first aider behave..and to be professional. Lotsa cameras shooting around, of cos have to act professional!! lol.

At about 8.20pm we changed shifts..gera and siying went back to the FA post and two other took over. At about 9pm, I went to check out laura and may..omg. so many celebrities were beside only lor, likes of Gurmit Singh, Quan Yifeng and many more!! haha. *excited

At 9.30pm, the event ended..street party starts. Whao, imagine the noise level and we're trying to communicate through the walkie-talkies. siao la. have to shout into the speaker, until now I'm having a sore throat. zzz. Den lotsa people going home..here and there, I tried to squeeze my way through the crowd and as a result one of my shoulder flash dropped..("buah" too much with the crowd)

Instructions were given to us through walkie talkies. We've over a hundred first aiders with us, only 6 walkie-talkies for zone in-charged. Took us about 45 minutes to settle our manpower. May, laura, carrot and siying went home at 10.20pm..was rather worried about them, cos I couldn't leave as the street party will go on till about 11pm+++. They took the train home and I made them message me once they reach home. quite fast lei, may and laura reached home at around 11.05pm, then siying reached..lastly geraldine. phew. safe and sound!

ok..I forgot what time I boarded the ambulance and headed towards HQ. took a cab home at about 12am. Lucky no casualties...good day for everyone. Great job, thanks. I hope you all (may, laura, siying, carrot) learn alot and had fun! esp siying and carrot, way to go! more duties to come! =D

oh yes. We took photos after we stood down from duty. haha!

Valentine's 07!

Valentine's on 14 Feb. Was back home in the afternoon after my driving lesson, then choon siong called to jio me out for shopping. haha! His working hours in camp darn flexible! kk, arranged to meet at city hall at 2.30pm, he frigging alighted from his bus in orchard and told me that he reached city hall! ok, den I went to orchard to meet him. Not a bad idea afterall, good shopping though. Bought quite a number of shirts and stuff. lol.

Arranged to meet JY, Jeri, Ken and Ong 6pm at city hall. Saw many many couples on the way. May you (reading this) find ur match soon! Walked to suntec city and agreed on Carl's Jr for dinner. HAHA. aiya, from my point of view, eating where doesn't really matters, it is who you're eating with matters.

Here're some pics at Carl's Jr!!

Ong the licker? Again? OH!

UMM. Burgers!! so 丰满!! *chomps

Phototaking at fountain of wealth..very nice lei. hahah. though we made a scene there, disrupting the quiet atmosphere for some romantic-couples-wannabe.

Club SAA!

woooo!

Style eh? we look great!

omg?! *LAUGHS

HEADLINE: LATEST SCANDAL. Parapazzi: KENNETH LIM. STARRING: ONG & JY. Moving on to esplanade..

Kenneth sure is fast to capture photos! great skill from ken lim!

Valentine's! look carefully at the pic!

JY and Jerilyn caught red-handed!

Ken made a sick joke. T_T

Tired? *smiles

JY and Jerilyn bought balloons for us! Don't know where they got them, because no one was carrying the same balloon as us! THANKS! We appreciate that alot! The balloons got entangled btw.

O.O SUP?

fly fly fly.. balloon. They had words written on them by JY & Jerilyn, that's enough to make a balloon special.

wee!

Catch Barcelona vs Liverpool, LIFE!

Barcelona vs Liverpool at Nou Camp! Champions League showdown! To all Liverpool fans, ROAR and SHAKE nou camp!!

Steven Gerrard the skipper!

Inspire a victory!

Liverpool vs Bolton!

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Ah ma.

Today's my ah ma's b'dae! =D I just remembered 1 hour ago, 10.30pm. LOL

Best wishes for her and wishing her a healthy and happy life! =)

The last few tricks?

Was playing maple with my sis...den u called and told me you wanted to terminate the internet. I am indeed very upset with this. I received a lousy excuse - an excuse you gave to smoke your way through.

Yes, it was their fault that the internet didn't work for 2 months, and so now there's no compensation from them. You got pissed off so that's the reason you wanted to cancel my internet over here in cck? Is that all? Is your EGO really so important to you? I cannot believe this. You've lost your daughter, now my grip on you is slowly being lubricated - by what you all have been doing - and slipping off. Not surely, but certainly.

Cancel the internet in January? Do it then. I'll survive this, I'm sure.

good gracious me. you tell me to go back pasir ris and use the internet if I needed to do so? OH MY. It's so inconvenient do you understand. Sorry, you don't. I need to handle much of my st john trainings for these 3 months and I definitely need the internet to receive updates, submit proposals, review training matters. wow, so I have to spend approx. 90 minutes to travel by train to pasir ris and walk another half an hour in, just to do a few clicks so that I could send an email? IS THAT IT?

This is totally ridiculous I feel. You really don't understand my life here. It's very convenient for you in pasir ris of cos, when both of you have a car each. Can't you spare more thoughts for me, I know you wanted me to stay in pasir ris. I have been trying my best to go back whenever I can afford the time, but too bad, you 2 always fail to notice what I've done. You 2 only saw what I've NOT done.

It goes the same for my school work, you (mom) never once take a look at my result slip, or rather perhaps once of twice. Maybe you'd have shrug it off 2 seconds after glancing through it. you (dad) always tell me to buck up on this subject and that area, but you never once recognize my effort in which I've been improving steadily. Therefore, I only know what I've not done well in, but I never once knew what I've excel in.

Often, I discover the areas of excellence myself. It's is really tough. But I've to thank my grandma who's always supported me through out my 10 years in education. Flashing back to the pre-A levels period. Just after my prelims, I told myself not to study so hard anymore. I gave up studying, really, for full 6 days. All I did was running and playing games online. All the encouragement my grandma gave me throughout that 6 days didn't work, I was too demoralised, shakened, weak at that time. Until the 7th day when all but what she sat down and told me shook me right in the head.

From there I picked myself up again. She is really the pillar of my life. No one else. If I could, I'd definitely live with my grandma. It was one of my reason for not wanting to stay in pasir ris. My grandma's old and now I've grown up. Shouldn't I take care of her now, for what she's done for me for my life. She shaped my future, she inculcate invaluable values and morals into me.

If my parents could be a little more understanding, things would turn out better. You wouldn't want to see yourself alone, 25 years down the road. of cos you'd want someone to take care of you and have someone to talk to. THINK AND INTERNALIZE.

I am not gaining any sympathy from anyone, please. I am writing it down for myself.

Trip to Malacca, Putrajaya!

Great trip, ck was a funny guy. Ginger was hot. It was great to go on a holiday! We stayed in 2 different hotels..Renaisance hotel and Marriot hotel. R hotel had fantastic toilets..Marriot doesn't. lOL. That's not the point anyway.

Drizzled once. Far from what I read in the papers and saw on television about the heavy rain storms in Malaysia. True enough, some villages were indeed half submerged in the muddy waters. Water level was up the thigh!

Water baffalos, monkeys, goats, chickens all went under a bus stop for some shelter! lOL. They were bus stops in Malacca, but the tour guide says if you had missed one bus, you can go back home first, and come back tomorrow for the next bus. Bus stops hardly used.

Marriot Hotel lobby!

Some photo taking by ginger boi.

Ginger and me!!

Chuen Kit and me! eh. what's my name again. lOl.

Boat ride!

Chocolates for some late night snacking!! =D

The hotel provided 1 condom for 3 guys staying in a room...lOL. OF COS NOT. It was a cute lil chocolate in the box. :p

Lastly! shopping at Alamanda complex!

Go on a travel, friends!

rely on no one

The months have passed and much have happened. I came to realise it's time for me to get down to my own feet and do something bout it. I shall not be one rotten slug doing nuts at home. I shall work, work and work! get myself to work and earn some money!

I really hated this situation now. wondering what have I done wrong in the first place. who said we can enjoy life after the A levels. for most of my fellow friends, they did.

Tormented daily, I hoped for the best with every new dawn.

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Look, if both of you are reading this, I'd thank god. If not, so be it. I'm sick of this.

I understand that as a son, it's all the right for me to live in my own home. I'd pretty much like to do that. BUT IT IS NOT EASY AT ALL FOR ME TO ADAPT TO THAT SICKENING PASIR RIS PLACE. I CAN'T GO JOGGING IN THE NIGHT, I CAN'T GO SWIMMING WITH MY FRIENDS WHENEVER I WANTED TO, GOING OUT WITH FRIENDS IS A PROBLEM (ALL LIVING IN THE WEST!!).

WHAT ABOUT MY ST JOHN TRAININGS, THEY HAVE A COMPETITION NEXT YEAR, I'M THE ONLY ONE AVAILABLE, THE REST NEED TIME FOR THEIR FINAL YEAR EXAM, I CANNOT BE SELFISH, DO YOU F**KING GET IT.

EVERYTIME I GO FOR FIRST AID DUTIES, YOU'D ASKED IF AM I PAID. I AM NOT !! I REPEATED MYSELF UMPTEEN TIMES ALREADY! I AM NOT IGNORANT, I CAN SENSE THE SIGNAL YOU ARE GIVING ME -- "why are you doing all these? waste of time? not paid.." COME ON, THE SENSE OF SATISFACTION I GET FROM ALL THESE VOLUNTEER WORK I DO CAN NEVER EVER BE BOUGHT WITH MONEY, AND THIS IS WHAT I LOVE DO TO. I GET JOY FROM THESE, CAN YOU GIVE ME SUCH SECURITY EMOTIONALLY? I'M SORRY, YOU 2 CAN'T. NEVER.

I MENTIONED ABOUT GOING TO ZOO TO DO 2 WEEKS OF VOLUNTEER WORK, YOU ASKED THE SAME THING, GIVE ME THE SAME SIGNAL AGAIN. WTF IS ALL THESE? WHY ARE YOU 2 PILING SO MUCH PRESSURE ON ME? CAN'T I EVEN RELAX MYSELF AFTER MY A LEVELS, IT'S BARELY 2 WEEKS AFTER MY LAST PAPER.

CAN'T U 2 SEE THAT I'M TRYING MY BEST TO GO BACK EVERY WEEK, AT LEAST FOR A FEW DAYS, BUT WHAT CAN I DO THERE. THE PLACE IS SO ISOLATED, AT LEAST A FREAKING KILOMETRE FROM PASIR RIS MRT. I DON FEEL HAPPY THERE, IT'S AS GOOD AS I'M IMPRISONED.

WOULD YOU RATHER ME TO STAY IN CCK WITH MY AH MA WHOM I'VE BEEN STAYING WITH FOR THE PAST 10 YEARS? OR YOU WOULD YOU RATHER ME TO GO INSANE OR CRAZY TO STAY IN THE MENTAL HOSPITAL. PLEASE, FOR GOODNESS SAKE, DON'T WAIT TILL YOU SEE THE CONSEQUENCES, YOU 2 WON'T BE ABLE TO TAKE IT.

NOW WHAT, NOW YOU WANT TO TERMINATE MY INTERNET CONNECTION? WHAT IS THIS? SOME SORT OF A WAY TO FORCE ME TO GO BACK PASIR RIS? YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND, I'VE TOO MUCH AFFLIATIONS IN CCK, TOO MANY TO NAME. I CAN'T JUST GO BACK AND MEANS REALLY GO BACK FOR GOOD. IT'S NOT REASONABLE!

I'M SORRY, I CANNOT ASSIMILATE HOW YOU 2 THINK, IF YOU REALLY TERMINATE MY INTERNET, I'M COOL WITH IT. AT LEAST I FEEL HAPPIER STAYING WITH MY AH MA.

LATELY, I REALISED THAT YOU'RE BECOMING MORE AND MORE STUBBORN. SERIOUSLY, I DON'T WANT TO VOICE OUT, IT MAKES ME APPEAR TO BE VERY RUDE.

ONE THING I REALLY CANNOT ACCEPT, WE ALL ARE BUDDHISTS, ISN'T DOING VOLUNTEER WORK WHAT HAVE BEEN PREACHED? I CAN SEE THAT BOTH OF YOU ARE DEVOTED BUDDHISTS, BUT WHY THE REPLY I GET WHENEVER I MENTIONED ABOUT ME DOING THEM?

I HAVE NO INTENTION TO BE PART OF THE FAMILY, IT DOESN'T GIVE ME AN IDENTITY, IT DOESN'T GIVE ME SECURITY, IT DOESN'T GIVE ME EMOTIONAL SUPPORT. Lastly, I don't understand why am I only given $50 pocket money for sometimes 2 weeks, most of the time 3-4 weeks. I try to save for what I want to buy, but it seems it is seemingly impossible. Never mind about money, I'm cool with this - already used to it.

Away

Internet down, won't be updating for a while! lol.